I don’t want to trigger you, but this happened to me. I started saying I’m bisexual but I keep it between my husband and I. To be completely honest I only intend on being with men (my husband) but I enjoy looking at women sometimes and there’s nothing wrong with that. Accepting that has made ocd loosen its grip on me, and I stopped having anxiety surrounding those thoughts. It gave me room to breathe. And then I was able to see I really primarily only like men, it was OCD that was causing me to relentlessly question myself. Practicing unconditional self acceptance helps you to sort your thoughts
I want to add, this is just my experience. It doesn’t mean it’s yours. There are millions of people who are 100% straight who have HOCD. It’s about the obsession of thinking about your sexuality, it giving you anxiety that takes over. You can’t allow it to give you fear or else you continue the cycle of ruminating and checking
it's not going to happen to you, it's just one person's experience. being bisexual is swag af and not the end of the world
Wdym its swag? And, I understand Its not the end of the world, but I always wanted to fall in love in a girl and do stuff with her but I feel like Ive lost that feeling now and im slowly forgetting about it. Im not worried about being Bi or gay as much as not being able to feel attraction and connection to women or it being lower to whatever other attraction I could have thats what terrifies me.
@Imaan7 Accept uncertainty, and then everything will fall into place. Trust yourself, trust that everything is going to be okay no matter what. Youre going to be okay no matter what conclusion you come to
these situations can be extremely triggering. i'm sorry you're struggling with it. keep in mind the goal of exposure therapy and the whole recovery process is not to be 100% certain of your sexuality REGARDLESS of what direction that is. it's not to be 100% sure you're straight, not to be 100% certain of anything. rather it's being okay knowing that you may never know for sure, that none of us really know for sure, and that we don't need to answer those questions and that we certainly won't find it out by ruminating about it, reassurance seeking, or avoiding. ocd fools us into believing that those behaviors/rituals will be helpful but they end up keeping us more stuck. how are you doing now?