I thought I was on the road to recovery and now I’m just more confused. It feels like I’m just suppressing something I want. But I don’t want it. It doesn’t feel like me but I’ve forgotten what me feels like. And on the rare few seconds where I feel like myself I get so scared that it’s going to go again. I feel like a fraud, how can I stay with my girlfriend if I keep thinking about this. I don’t even know what I want anymore. I was sure now I don’t know anything.

kyle g tucker

Date posted: 4y

Just say maybe maybe not just accept uncertainty it will be hard but it teaches your mind that you don’t need to fear the thoughts my take a while but it will be worth it in the end ... just hand in there and know your not alone !

kyle g tucker

Date posted: 4y

No I don’t like the thoughts they make me feel sick it is hell every day all my life kid and my teen year as well as adult I knew who I was didn’t have to ask if am gay i just knew I wasn’t then late nights long hours at work and boom I am here stuck In a rut

Imaan7

Date posted: 4y

Wdym late night long hours?

anon90

Date posted: 4y

Same here. That's the thing about it, we KNOW the truth. We KNOW what reality is. And yet, somehow OCD has planted those seeds of doubt. It sucks.

kyle g tucker

Date posted: 4y

No I am not gay just have intrusive thoughts

Tan???

Date posted: 4y

I’m talking to the anonymous person

Day513

Date posted: 4y

I don’t know what I want anymore either. It makes you feel like you doubt everything

BradOCD

Date posted: 4y

Saying I don’t want it just feels like denial now I feel like I’m just going in circles

Day513

Date posted: 4y

@BradOCD Yes same here. Have you told your girlfriend about Your OCD?

BradOCD

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous I’m in a weird place where like I can’t tell if mine has changed or not sometimes I feel like both sd but that just makes me depressed and then every now and then I feel a wave of relief like it’s still the same but then it goes. And it’s just getting harder to hold on

kyle g tucker

Date posted: 4y

Yeah maybe that was the case for you but not everyone is the same

kyle g tucker

Date posted: 4y

Late night long hours at work then when it all started from their the guys said no wonder gay guys are happy they don’t have women in their life and bang it was stuck

kyle g tucker

Date posted: 4y

Can I ask anonymous did you have a partner or kids ?

kyle g tucker

Date posted: 4y

And no I don’t like the thoughts I said they make me sick

kyle g tucker

Date posted: 4y

Oh sorry my bad

kyle g tucker

Date posted: 4y

Again that’s not every one’s situation Here

kyle g tucker

Date posted: 4y

Maybe maybe not... not trying to figure it out anymore

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