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It feels like and angel/devil on my shoulder kind of deal. It feels im having constant arguments in my head with a bully
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YESS!!!! are you on any medication or therapy? i really want to start zoloft
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@bricady (she/her) I take lmaotrigine which is a mood stabilizer. SSRI’s dont work on me they make me feel worse. I also have BPD. If it works for you thats great! Thats what I take and what has worked for me for the past 4 years
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It can definitely feel that way sometimes!
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Yess I feel this way all the time and I never really noticed it till recently. Like it’s me the person I known forever and than the ocd. It’s weird to describe because it feels like I’m hiding another part of me. Sometimes I’m glad we can’t know what other people are thinking because if people did know I don’t think I would have anything I have right now :(
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YES exactly how u worded it. like YOU and then ur OCD
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@bricady (she/her) Yeah it’s so scary I feel like a fraud sometimes and I’m scared of slipping up one of these days
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I feel this way too. Like part of me is fine/okay and the other part is OCD always running in the background.
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yep. hit it right in the money
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Always running in the background I like that.
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ugh it sucks so much. do you do anything to help that feeling?
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@CatLove9 yea exactly:/ thats all ive been doing
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@CatLove9 i feel like thats the most difficult part is that I’m living my life and doing everything and working out. and nothings working
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@CatLove9 EXACTLY
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@CatLove9 yeaaa its just a constant battle and obsession
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<3
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Oh, yeah. The ADHD, the OCD, and the RSD are three little biatches separate from me.
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That's a tough combo!
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YES! one half of me always feels like a me I have known for a long time, the other part is screaming at me STOP WHAT YOU‘re doing you are dangerous you are in denial bla bla! It’s very exhausting. Sometimes I get this extreme urge to move and do something ‚or else‘ but at the same time I‘m just laying down in my bed not moving at all.
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@CatLove9 Oh my good I have this SO OFTEN. I will lay there but inside it’s just screaming and my brain is like YOU NEED TO DO SOMETHING you’re guilty you’re eternally fucked up somethings wrong somethings wrong but on the outside I‘m just in my bed soo weirdly calm trying to make peace with myself lol. I’m so glad (but also sad for you of course) you know this feeling. It’s like two separate entities fighting. We really need to end the war and leave the battlefield 🥰
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@CatLove9 Or you’re just like scrolling and trying to distract yourself not even moving but your heart and head are freaking out and it feels like you’ve lost your mind
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It's a tug of war sometimes.
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yessss I have heard many people experiencing this and feeling this way! I think that's partly why OCD is so maddening. Part of you knows that this is silly, doesn't make sense but part of you still feels like it's really real.
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yes yes 100%
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someone said its like background noice all the time and i truly couldnt agree more
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