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It feels like and angel/devil on my shoulder kind of deal. It feels im having constant arguments in my head with a bully
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YESS!!!! are you on any medication or therapy? i really want to start zoloft
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@bricady (she/her) I take lmaotrigine which is a mood stabilizer. SSRI’s dont work on me they make me feel worse. I also have BPD. If it works for you thats great! Thats what I take and what has worked for me for the past 4 years
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It can definitely feel that way sometimes!
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Yess I feel this way all the time and I never really noticed it till recently. Like it’s me the person I known forever and than the ocd. It’s weird to describe because it feels like I’m hiding another part of me. Sometimes I’m glad we can’t know what other people are thinking because if people did know I don’t think I would have anything I have right now :(
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YES exactly how u worded it. like YOU and then ur OCD
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@bricady (she/her) Yeah it’s so scary I feel like a fraud sometimes and I’m scared of slipping up one of these days
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I feel this way too. Like part of me is fine/okay and the other part is OCD always running in the background.
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yep. hit it right in the money
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Always running in the background I like that.
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ugh it sucks so much. do you do anything to help that feeling?
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@CatLove9 yea exactly:/ thats all ive been doing
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@CatLove9 i feel like thats the most difficult part is that I’m living my life and doing everything and working out. and nothings working
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@CatLove9 EXACTLY
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@CatLove9 yeaaa its just a constant battle and obsession
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<3
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Oh, yeah. The ADHD, the OCD, and the RSD are three little biatches separate from me.
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That's a tough combo!
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YES! one half of me always feels like a me I have known for a long time, the other part is screaming at me STOP WHAT YOU‘re doing you are dangerous you are in denial bla bla! It’s very exhausting. Sometimes I get this extreme urge to move and do something ‚or else‘ but at the same time I‘m just laying down in my bed not moving at all.
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@CatLove9 Oh my good I have this SO OFTEN. I will lay there but inside it’s just screaming and my brain is like YOU NEED TO DO SOMETHING you’re guilty you’re eternally fucked up somethings wrong somethings wrong but on the outside I‘m just in my bed soo weirdly calm trying to make peace with myself lol. I’m so glad (but also sad for you of course) you know this feeling. It’s like two separate entities fighting. We really need to end the war and leave the battlefield 🥰
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@CatLove9 Or you’re just like scrolling and trying to distract yourself not even moving but your heart and head are freaking out and it feels like you’ve lost your mind
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It's a tug of war sometimes.
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yessss I have heard many people experiencing this and feeling this way! I think that's partly why OCD is so maddening. Part of you knows that this is silly, doesn't make sense but part of you still feels like it's really real.
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yes yes 100%
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someone said its like background noice all the time and i truly couldnt agree more
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When I say I feel like I like a thought, I don’t mean the OCD is telling me like a thought or that I concluded that from a physical sensation. I mean, I genuinely feel like something in my brain lights up and it feels like I like it mentally. Whenever I hear people talk about liking thoughts (excitement, arousal), I always see things about groinals or heart flutters. Physical things. I don’t think I really ever see people talk about the mental sensation if this is even a thing. I just wanna know if anyone relates to this or has found an explanation for this because seeing it from an analytical point of view seems to help me sometimes. This is so, *so* especially hard for pocd themed thoughts :( Anyone relate?
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i’ve just been feeling so off lately. i’m okay right now, but a couple hours ago i was in this mood where i felt anxiety creeping up. like i will feel like there’s danger when there isn’t. i just get this really uncomfortable feeling that something feels wrong even when it isn’t. and i’ve been feeling derealization/depersonalization. just really disconnected from myself and the world. i’ve also been unmotivated to where there are times when the thought of doing things upsets me. and i’ve been having existential thoughts that do not mesh well with harm ocd. i get the thought “if people aren’t real then it’s okay to hurt them”. it sucks because there are times where i just don’t even care to ruminate and find reassurance that that’s not the case. furthermore, i’ve just been really aware of my existence. i will get moments where i’m so aware of my existence and it freaks me out. like the fact that i’m a living human being is crazy to me. then there are times when i’m not even anxious about anything which then has me questioning and ruminating on that because i ALWAYS have something i’m worrying about. i’ve also been feeling really nostalgic and bittersweet of the good memories from the past. i keep thinking about good times i’ve had and really wishing i could relive it. for example, last summer was a pretty good summer even with my ocd. and i just wish i could relive some of those moments, but i obviously can’t. and it’s been upsetting me because this month has been shitty with my anxiety. as for an update with my room change to those of you curious, i still have anxiety over it and my mom is taking it as me being ungrateful with what i have when it’s my ocd making a huge deal of it. that upsets me especially since i’ve told her what’s been going on and she was really understanding of it. anyways, life has just been a bit much and i’ve been dealing with more to my anxiety that i don’t appreciate. while worrying about constantly throwing up with my contamination ocd is incredibly exhausting, it’s so normal to me that i’m used to it. but when my harm ocd kicks in along with other themes that aren’t usually common for me, i freak out and feel like i’m going insane. i genuinely wonder how people have dealt with taboo topics of ocd without treatment for years on end. i’ve had harm intrusive thoughts since i was little, but it didn’t get to any extreme until 2023. i feel like i’m drowning in it when it decides to hit me and the thought of having to deal with it for the rest of my life?? i’m scared something in me will flip and i’ll become what my thoughts are telling me i am. i apologize for the mixed thoughts that are all over the place but i feel safe posting on here about it and want to hear how y’all are doing
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Lately I just feel like I’m on the verge of losing it and I don’t know why. I feel so uncomfortable in my own body. Physically and mentally. Not due to insecurity but just that something isn’t right… I never feel good, I’m always fatigued, my head hurts all the time, but my blood work comes back fine so doctor’s will do nothing. I have anxiety and panic attacks and recently I guess depression since I’m always down. I have relationship OCD so my partner deals with me not being sure of him constantly and it breaks my heart. I don’t want to leave him because he’s great but half the time my brain is telling me he isn’t the one. I keep counting as well, constantly counting every letter in every word and every word in every sentence… it just feels like I’m gonna go insane one of these days and I’m scared. When I talk to someone about this, they have no clue what to tell me or how to help. Am I alone in feeling this way??
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