kyle g tucker
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- 3y
JustmesadlyJustmesadly
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- 3y
Your looking for reassurance and depending on your beliefs people are going to answer This question differently so you’re not going to get the answer you want
kyle g tuckerkyle g tucker
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- 3y
I know it is so hard I was thinking of killing my my self today just can’t take this anymore it’s horrible
JustmesadlyJustmesadly
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- 3y
Your life is worth so much more than your sexuality. I promise ocd isn’t worth taking your life for
JustmesadlyJustmesadly
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- 3y
Please call the hotline if you need help
7EMPES77EMPES7
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- 3y
I don’t think your sexuality can change, mine never has... did you always think like this, or was it after a difficult time in your life. Did you get harassed from individuals... about your sexuality? I got harassed, constantly about my sexuality... I’m straight, but because these people scrutinised my orientation so much, I started to question myself. But I never questioned myself before. That’s the answer for me
kyle g tuckerkyle g tucker
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- 3y
No I didn’t always think of this it was after a hard time in my life
7EMPES77EMPES7
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- 3y
In that case, I think you’re suffering from ocd, it’s very much similar to what I went through. I was harassed and it was like brainwashing... I began to believe what they were telling me. After the harassment for 2yrs, I started to have those thoughts. You see, you worry about being gay, you don’t like the thoughts... of being intimate with someone of the same sex. So therefore you’re not gay. If you was homosexual, you would enjoy those thoughts... but you don’t. The thoughts I had got to such a point, that they made me sick. I felt physically nauseous.
7EMPES77EMPES7
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- 3y
I began having thoughts about other people and their motives towards me. Like, if I was in the company of another man, I would look at them looking at me... and a thought would pop in my head. I would think... “is he gay, is he looking at me because he fancy’s me. Does he think I’m gay, does he think I fancy him...?” I would totally get freaked out by it. Before the harassment, I was very comfortable with my fellow men. It was girls I was nervous about.
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geodrimilis
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- 24w
I need this to end.
I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
idkwhatusern...
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- 21w
I’m questioning sexuality even though I’m young
Sort of a rant that probably sounds stupid and I’m kind of seeking reassurance… I’m still a relatively young teenager so I know I’ve got time to work all this out but I’m really confused about my sexuality. (I’m a girl) I’ve never been in a relationship (I don’t know if I want to be which is why I’m writing this) and sometimes I feel like I’ve never really had a crush and I just convinced myself that I did because I wanted to feel normal… but then maybe that’s false memory ocd??? I don’t really want to be in a long term relationship with a guy and idk about girls but idk if that’s just cos of my age??? Some days I hate the idea of ever dating, marrying or doing anything sexual. Other days I wish my mental / physical health was better so I could date someone! Everything I feel goes up and down a lot and idk why!? I have bad sexual intrusive thoughts that make me unsure whether anything that I think is real and my parents recently split up after not getting along for a few years. I don’t know if it’s my age, my ocd, my parents bad relationship, my sexuality (am I attracted to guys, girls? Am I ace!!!!???) Or something else but I have no idea who I am and I KNOW I’m young and have time but some other perspectives might help???? Can I ever be in a relationship if I have ocd like this? Also I’m really struggling not to compulsively seek reassurance and I don’t know who to talk to about all this irl I know I probably shouldn’t share this with random strangers but also idek if I care anymore 😭
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What is happ...
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- 21w
Questions… I don’t want reassurance just advice
I’ve tried accepting the uncertainty, I’ve accepted I may be gay, bi or still straight. I’ve tried doing ERP myself to the best I can. When I accept that I’m gay or bi why doesn’t my head agree and move on? Why does it still question it? I know I don’t want to be at all. I love my family. But I just want this to move on. I want to enjoy life. Why can’t I find women attractive again? (Brief moments I do). I seriously don’t understand the false attraction? I’ve tried agreeing with it but it won’t let this drop. Why am I attracted to the same sex? Why am I attracted to people I would never thought of looking at? Why does it give me such grief about this? I know I shouldn’t look at adult content but why can I only feel good watching either lesbian or females? I tried to agree with the gay but it makes me sick and horrendous I even considered this? I just want my life back.
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