kyle g tucker
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- 3y ago
JustmesadlyJustmesadly
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- 3y ago
Your looking for reassurance and depending on your beliefs people are going to answer This question differently so you’re not going to get the answer you want
kyle g tuckerkyle g tucker
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- 3y ago
I know it is so hard I was thinking of killing my my self today just can’t take this anymore it’s horrible
JustmesadlyJustmesadly
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- 3y ago
Your life is worth so much more than your sexuality. I promise ocd isn’t worth taking your life for
JustmesadlyJustmesadly
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- 3y ago
Please call the hotline if you need help
7EMPES77EMPES7
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I don’t think your sexuality can change, mine never has... did you always think like this, or was it after a difficult time in your life. Did you get harassed from individuals... about your sexuality? I got harassed, constantly about my sexuality... I’m straight, but because these people scrutinised my orientation so much, I started to question myself. But I never questioned myself before. That’s the answer for me
kyle g tuckerkyle g tucker
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- 3y ago
No I didn’t always think of this it was after a hard time in my life
7EMPES77EMPES7
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- 3y ago
In that case, I think you’re suffering from ocd, it’s very much similar to what I went through. I was harassed and it was like brainwashing... I began to believe what they were telling me. After the harassment for 2yrs, I started to have those thoughts. You see, you worry about being gay, you don’t like the thoughts... of being intimate with someone of the same sex. So therefore you’re not gay. If you was homosexual, you would enjoy those thoughts... but you don’t. The thoughts I had got to such a point, that they made me sick. I felt physically nauseous.
7EMPES77EMPES7
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- 3y ago
I began having thoughts about other people and their motives towards me. Like, if I was in the company of another man, I would look at them looking at me... and a thought would pop in my head. I would think... “is he gay, is he looking at me because he fancy’s me. Does he think I’m gay, does he think I fancy him...?” I would totally get freaked out by it. Before the harassment, I was very comfortable with my fellow men. It was girls I was nervous about.
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Mt2019
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- 11w ago
Question about HOCD
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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