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Your looking for reassurance and depending on your beliefs people are going to answer This question differently so you’re not going to get the answer you want
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I know it is so hard I was thinking of killing my my self today just can’t take this anymore it’s horrible
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Your life is worth so much more than your sexuality. I promise ocd isn’t worth taking your life for
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Please call the hotline if you need help
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I don’t think your sexuality can change, mine never has... did you always think like this, or was it after a difficult time in your life. Did you get harassed from individuals... about your sexuality? I got harassed, constantly about my sexuality... I’m straight, but because these people scrutinised my orientation so much, I started to question myself. But I never questioned myself before. That’s the answer for me
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No I didn’t always think of this it was after a hard time in my life
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In that case, I think you’re suffering from ocd, it’s very much similar to what I went through. I was harassed and it was like brainwashing... I began to believe what they were telling me. After the harassment for 2yrs, I started to have those thoughts. You see, you worry about being gay, you don’t like the thoughts... of being intimate with someone of the same sex. So therefore you’re not gay. If you was homosexual, you would enjoy those thoughts... but you don’t. The thoughts I had got to such a point, that they made me sick. I felt physically nauseous.
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I began having thoughts about other people and their motives towards me. Like, if I was in the company of another man, I would look at them looking at me... and a thought would pop in my head. I would think... “is he gay, is he looking at me because he fancy’s me. Does he think I’m gay, does he think I fancy him...?” I would totally get freaked out by it. Before the harassment, I was very comfortable with my fellow men. It was girls I was nervous about.
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Last night I took my meds to help me sleep and I kept waking up throughout the night with thoughts like “I’m really a lesbian now” or “I’m ok with it now, this is what I prefer”. I really feel like everyday for a couple of days now, I’ve woken up feeling more and more like my preferences have completely changed. The first few days was major anxiety, panic attacks, then I had a really bad double-bind and reversal spiral, and I became a little bit calmer since then. Now I feel like I’m managing the thoughts without anxiety or panic like I’m used to, but now it feels like I really want them and that I’m ok with it. Like I don’t care anymore. But the thing is, in between all of the mini spiral episodes I’ve had, I had these little moments of clarity like “I’m not giving up on my fantasies of men” or “I’ve always wanted men, that doesn’t just change”. But last night I’ve had really sexual dreams that I’m having trouble interpreting. I had one where I think it was me sleeping with a guy, but I woke up frantically because I think the roles got reversed, but I’m not sure. Another one I was a random woman with a husband, but I think the roles got reversed again so I woke up immediately. Both times it felt like arousal. Obviously I still care somewhat if I’m still here asking, but my brain or maybe me (I’m really not sure anymore) is telling me that I’m a lesbian now and I prefer it. It’s like I don’t care and want it now. It’s like I’m not even feeling confusion about it. I don’t know if it’s because of the meds, I’ve been distracted (family in town), because I’m in maybe quieter stages after two bad spiral episodes, or because I’ve really changed. It’s literally like I think being a lesbian will be enjoyable now but I don’t want that, even if my brain (and body apparently) keeps telling me that. I was told that ocd doesn’t change who you are, but now I’m worried that what I thought was background noise leading up to another spiral was suppressed self discovery (I’ve had two major soocd episodes in my life: late high school and now a few years later).
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I know it can be kind of reassuring , but did your sexual orientation as a teenager stay with you until you became an adult or have it changed?
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So I haven’t been on this app in a while. But I just want advice on how to overcome this. I’m now 18 and I’ve been trying out dating apps. I’m not gonna lie I’m kinda picky when it comes to dating only because I plan on dating to marry…so I take it a bit more seriously. But for some reason it’s so hard to click with people on these dating apps. So my friend was helping me through this dating apps process. I told her that I wasn’t interested in this guy I was texting anymore because of the way he was responding to my messages. And she says maybe you’re gay…this is honestly the sixth time (I’m definitely over exaggeration but this isn’t the first time someone had said this to me) someone has ask/said this. Every time someone says this it literally sends me down this spiral of are they seeing something I’m not seeing. Despite never having a crush on a girl my mind goes down this loop of overthinking. And when I say I don’t want that lifestyle or I don’t really find pleasure in being apart of the lgbtq community my mind is like in denial. I just wanted to have a fun teenage dating experience and now every time I open the app I always think what if I really am gay and I’m just in denial…or what if the reason why I’m not connecting with anyone is because I’m really into girls. Since i’m also religious, my mom wants to go what you’re denying who we are because of your religion. And I tried to reassure myself by saying I would know if that was the case like I would feel deep down who I’m truly attracted to and know that I’m trying to cover it up by dating men. This whole thing is so mentally taxing because I was going through this all throughout my senior year of high school and I’m not going into my freshman year of college so. Like I literally felt so much anxiety next to one of my classmates who was gay and a masculine presenting. I feel like if I would’ve told this to anyone, they’d say of course you’re in denial. But ig reply if you can relate
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