It’s been 2 years since I’ve thrown up because of a panic attack. I’ve really been proud of myself, but tonight I woke up at like 2:00 in the morning and felt sick and tried talking myself down but it didn’t work and I threw up. I have so many emotions rn. Mainly disappointment in myself. Frustration with the thoughts going through my brain, the usual: “what if this never goes away, what if you can never have a healthy relationship with your boyfriend, what if you’re actually gay, what if this isn’t OCD, what if you have a panic attack at this wedding this weekend and get sick and have to go to the hospital”

Incognito

215d ago

Oh yeah it’s incredibly annoying. Sounds like you have really really bad anxiety. One thing that helps me is just saying maybe and be okay with all of it. That’s the hardest part. One thing that really keeps me motivated is that that term “what if” has so much power in causing anxiety so what if I used it to motivate me like “what if I can get through that wedding, what if I can do this, what if I can pull all of this off” how proud and good you would feel in yourself

Tulipwood

215d ago

Smart idea to turn around the what if's, gonna try this!

Tulipwood

215d ago

I used to have anxiety and in the process of overcoming it, it would show up at times but there were longer intervals between the times when it would show up until it didn't anymore. It can be frustrating but remember that it doesn't take away from your progress, it's just part of it. Whatever happens later on, you can handle it, there's no need to worry.