I feel like this is no longer OCD. When the ROCD followed by the HOCD started I was so certain of what was me and what we OCD. Now I keep finding guys attractive and it makes me anxious. I’ve been trying acceptance but yea it makes me less anxious but it also makes it all seem very real. I feel really uncomfortable in my relationship. I’ve gone from a few days ago being really intimate with my girlfriend to now getting anxious even at the thought of sex with her? It’s worse when I wake up as well. I feel like I’m just ‘in the closet’ now whereas a week ago I knew this was just OCD and it allowed me to enjoy my relationship. Now it doesn’t feel the same

Ocd will do that and it can do that. I felt so comdfident it was OCD then the next it felt way too real. It is just the ocd

But sometimes I feel like it doesn’t bother me, and then the next day it really bothers me again. I just really don’t know what is real anymore. And even when i do feel okay with it I don’t like the fact that I might be okay with it. I don’t know if im making sense… sorry

@BradOCD HOCD is my primary theme and i basically just had to accept that I’m attracted to some men and attracted to some women (bisexual). If I have a thought I try to let it have it’s space, and then pass. But I CHOOSE to be with my girlfriend, who I care about immensely. So it’s possible to feel both things at once - OCD and our choices. And if the relationship doesn’t work, you have to remind yourself it won’t be the end of the world.

@mtaylor25 It just seems very hard to love and care for someone while I’m dealing with all these other feelings and thoughts.

@mtaylor25 How i know, find people who have same sex witg you doesn't mean that you are bisexual, or you believe what your hocd said?.. I don't understand

The problem is that sometimes people feel false attraction and when they feel false attraction anxiety comes with it and when that happens it’s makes our OCD even worse😅. It’s a nightmare

I do get this. However the anxiety I feel from it is becoming less and less, which just makes it feel so real. Sometimes I wish the anxiety would just come back

No straight man doesn’t think some men aren’t attractive😂

Very true! And I had always been comfortable with this before now. And now it feels like I have no choice but to be with a man because that’s what my brain is telling me I like. And I feel like it’s been going on for so long that I’ve even started to believe it. It doesn’t make me feel good at all but is calms the thoughts ever so slightly

But this did happen to me though and I know you feel

I feel like I’ve just given up on being the old me. And as the anxiety had gone down it feels like the intrusive thoughts aren’t that bad anymore. I can’t even tell if I want them to be true or not anymore. I was so sure I didn’t and now I don’t.

Feel the same, but i'm female and hocd in the front of my rocd :( but i believe that we will feel better in the future

I do hope you’re right