The single worst part about my ocd( if it even is that) is 90% of my thoughts/feelings and internal monolgues happen in english but english isnt my first language, it makes things extremely complicated when I try to make sense of my thoughts with limted vocabulary, most of the time I cant even put it into words what im feeling unless someone else who has also been exact through the same thing has typed it somwhere, Ill read it and go " oh thats what exactly what I was trying to say".
I despise being biilingual feel like I have 2 brains, 2 personalities, half my worries would be over if only I could explain to someone whats going through my head. This situation is so hopeless.