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- 3y
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Hey gal, sounds like you’ve been doing a lot of ruminating and have worked yourself up into a hightened state. OCD has really jumped on this for you and is not going to let you let it go without a fight. You have done nothing wrong… but me giving you that reassurance will not satisfy your OCD unfortunately. The best thing for you to do right now is disengage from the conversation. Every time it pops into your head let it go in and out without analyzing, ruminating, self punishing, etc. Lean into your feelings of guilt, anxiety, etc. do not avoid the thoughts or emotions. Use “maybe, maybe not” 🤷🏼♀️ and continue on with your day. Let OCD tell you you’re a bad person, blah, blah, blah and just disengage or respond with 🤷🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️ I’m sorry you’re feeling so scared. You’re going to be ok I promise
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Thank your for your response truly you are so kind, I just hate how when It happened I felt like I wanted to do it to enjoy it even though the whole time I hated it and was just trying to think of normal things I even tried to gauge the difference between the thought to see if I enjoyed one I’ve the other.. I know it’s ocd but sometimes it feels so real like that maybe this is me and this is what I really want that I’m just in denial.. I just wish this would go away I feel so guilty and so much shame and disgust just horrible.. I will try to just sit with this and use “maybe, maybe not” as well. Thank you for your response again because I was really confused and contemplating everything your so kind 🥺
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@OneDayAtATime💭 Just remember it has to feel really really real to you otherwise it wouldn’t bother you and OCD needs it to truly bother you otherwise it wouldn’t be able to trap you like it does. OCD’s goal is to keep you trapped. It also only targets what you value you most in life. You’re so welcome. OCD loves to high jack masturbation, groinal sensations, urges, etc. It’s so horrible but with ERP I promise it’ll get so much better. Follow @jenna.overbaugh on Instagram
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- 3y
Please know that if God is all merciful with you then you should also be merciful with yourself, we will make mistakes we are human and God expects us to make those mistakes. Learn from them. Have you spoken to a therapist? Getting treatment is the best option. You're not a lost cause, not unfixable, you haven't committed something unforgivable. Nothing is bigger than God's mercy. He loves you, know this.
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- 25w
Struggling. My mind/OCD told me I had already abused my child by breathing when they were laying across me and that I might as well do something else to hurt them. I had to think for a second, but the only thing that came to mind was to move my elbow towards their groin area to cause a "feeling". Well I did just that, and I ended up grazing their groinal area and it caused a disgusting unwanted feeling. I IMMEDIATELY wanted to throw up and panicked. I also asked my child to move off of me immediately. It went against my morals, beliefs, and values as an individual and mother. I can't stop thinking about it and it's very debilitating. I didn't enjoy a single moment of it. But my question to you guys is am the monster that I've always been scared of being? Do I belong in the ground? Do I deserve to have a wonderful life and wonderful, perfect child?
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- 23w
i’m struggling. so i’m a nanny and i had an intrusive thought to like do something bad to him so i was very upset crying saying i don’t want to do it but as i was changing him i got closer to it to see if i would actually do it and i got grossed out. now im feel extremely guilty i even got closer.
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- 17w
My mind is telling me I'm the only one who is dealing with something like this. Idk why I did my biggest BIGGEST fear. I was put on a new medication when this happened which caused me to spiral, my thoughts to be more often, and have insomnia. I have been diagnosed with POCD as well. I woke up in the middle of the night when my child was laying completely cross my chest. I was breathing and having groinal sensations. My mind told me that I assaulted her by this, and I was going to prison for it. My thoughts started going like this, "you're already bad might as well do something else", "no sense in stopping now" "you can finally do what you've always wanted", "what would you do if you could do anything to cause harm" So I had to think of what to do in the moment. The only thing I could think to do was move my elbow towards my child's groin. In the moment it felt like I really wanted to do this. I proceeded to do so, and my elbow touched her groin. I immediately told my child to move off me. I then went back to sleep. When I woke up, I began panicking, confessing to a family member what happened, and crying immensely. I feel like I failed as a mother. I'm in such distress since I started sleeping on the floor to avoid it from happening again, and I got off the medication. I'm so much better OCD wise since I got off the meds. I was the BEST mom months ago before this happened. The thoughts have always bothered me, and I was always scared I would give in and act on them. I'm living my worst nightmare. I feel alone. Felt so so wanted in the moment and SO real. Which I don't understand. Ugh. Could someone just give me some support?
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