Good morning, I'm new here, actually unsure of how I got here. I imagine I was searching for answers/support and clicking on links led me here. Nonetheless, I've looked around and read quite a few posts. I feel like I may have actually stumbled onto something here...perhaps it's wishful thinking, that I may have actually found a helpful group to overcome my ocd. I haven't seen my "Subtype" listed. Or I haven't noticed, rather. Long story short, I've suffered from debilitating anxiety/panic attacks for over 25 years. I was also Dx with ptsd and ocd. Not sure what my type of ocd falls under. I suffer from obsessive thoughts, worry. I worry about those close to me dying. I worry even more about myself dying. I honestly cannot remember the last time I actually enjoyed a day without unrealistic worry. Debilitating worry. I don't mean the normal daily hassles. I'd give anything to just have those. I also have a ritual of having to touch my bibles when I pray and making sure the bibles are under my pillows or beside my bed. If I don't touch them while praying, I worry something bad will happen to me or loved one. I don't wanna worry about these things anymore. I'm exhausted. I've so many questions here, not sure where to begin. How would one go about embracing their fears, if is about themselves or loved ones dying. Impending doom hovers me 24/7. Am I in the right place? If so, what "Type" of ocd is this? I've been on many different ssri for the majority of my life. They don't help. Why am I convinced I will die soon? I consider myself very spiritual. So, then I think God is not pleased with me because it would appear I've a lack of faith. I could keep going for hours. Someone please tell me I'm not alone on this and that complete healing is possible. Thank you in advance.