I convinced myself I downloaded dating apps while dating my bf . I had bumble BFF (which my bf allowed me to do) to find friends . And then I downloaded a meet me app to watch a youtubers I think. But some people use that for dating/making money on live. I’m super paranoid and anxious I did something wrong .

I found another app about making friends , and was friends with two girls on there and I convinced myself I flirted with someone etc . It was the same day I downloaded bumble BFF so I think my bf would’ve been with me . I hate this so much I wanna die lol.

@Princessbubblegum I totally understand how your brain twists things around. I've had similar thoughts as you. The hardest things I've had to learn is to just sit with the thoughts and let them be. I'm still working on that. It's not easy. Don't engage! Don't react. Just sit with it. You can even talk to the thoughts and says something like, "yeah sure!" It'll be totally weird and make you uncomfortable, but you're not going to give the OCD the type of reaction it wants. We'll get through this my friend!