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Honestly, that sounds abusive. She's been made aware this effects your OCD and still triggers you on purpose all the time. Is there anyone else you can live with?
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Unfortunately no, I've been battling with this abuse for my whole life. I wish I could be strong and just ignore what she says and just stay true to what I actually want, but she's always getting in my head.
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Okay. How is she seeing your grades? Like do you get paper grades back or is it online or?
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@excalibre-hotmessexpress We still get actual hardcopy report card but we can also get it online. Honestly, she already stopped being so naggy with my grades after a while, it's the attendances that I'm really worried about atm. I missed some of my classes now which I never did before the pandemic, since I was made sure to not miss any class because I was physically brought to school. But with online classes I sometimes miss classes because I get so easily distracted for hours on my phone and I forgot I was supposed to join a zoom meeting. I'm afraid of what she'll think after she sees my absences, even though I didn't mean to actually miss those classes on purpose. She'll probably say "oh I'm paying for your tuition and this is how you repay me? yadayada" and if I explain my side she might just say, "Riiiiigghhtt , you "weren't paying attention at the time" No, you just want to miss your classes don't you?"
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@AbiGail123 ...are you in private school or college? If you're in college and 18+, she not only has no right to access your grades, it's illegal for her to do so and illegal for the school to do that. Like everybody involved could get sued sued.
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@excalibre-hotmessexpress Uhhhmm I'm still in highschool, also like I said, I'm more worried about my attendances than my grades. Bc in our schools, we have this thing called "perfect attendance" certificate, which means you that if NEVER miss a class or a school day, you'll get that award, and it's pretty common to get that award. But my mom would be so upset if I don't get it
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@AbiGail123 I'm really sorry, that's awful. Maybe you could ask a teacher if you could make up missing attendance, or if missing attendance could be forgiven for the year because of the change in the structure of the school and the stress of the pandemic and your mental health. A very understanding teacher might say yes, and if they do say no, you're only in the same boat as when you started. I'm really sorry you're going through this, it sounds rough. If the teacher does say no, you might also speak to the vp/principal/superintendent/higher ups about abolishing perfect attendance for the year for the same reason...or even abolishing perfect attendance altogether, as it incentivizes students to ignore their mental and physical health/prioritizes students who aren't disabled, neurodivergent, mentally or chronically ill, and there are a bunch of studies and articles as to why that shouldn't be a thing anymore. Other than that, I really don't know what to tell you, so I'm sorry if that advice isn't helpful...
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@excalibre-hotmessexpress I'd also recommend setting an alarm on your phone for 10 minutes before class starts, and then you can arrive a little early in the future. Definitely point out to whoever you're making a case to that you've made an effort to arrive early and that you've always gotten perfect attendance before, so you're not trying to pull a fast one so you can slack off.
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I almost want to suggest you talk to a trusted teacher about this experience.
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That was about to be my suggestion. There are ways to fake paper grades, report cards, even online grades, and it's very easy. There's a reason my name is hotmessexpress- I KNOW how to do these things, and as long as a teacher is in support, you're 👍
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Grades ARE important if you're planning to seek higher education. She isn't wrong in wanting you to reach your full potential. What is wrong is that she is dumping her expectations onto you regardless of your feelings. Does she have any un-attained dreams she couldn't reach and expects you to do it for her? Do your best in school, but also remember you're human too.
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grades really aren't all that important in high school, especially not if the cost is a debilitating mental illness.
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Yeah this is maybe not the place to defend a mom who is actively deliberately destroying her child's mental health. Like that's mental abuse.
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@teeth Please read my comment. If you're seeking higher education, yes, they are important.
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@Maria weird. I failed half my classes and was a 4.0 student throughout undergrad.
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@excalibre-hotmessexpress I agree the mother is in the wrong, but are you not noticing pursefully failing courses is only damaging the original poster.
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@Maria They're not purposefully failing- they're purposely making some mistakes as ERP. 90% is not failing. 80% is not failing. It's honor roll. You are out here making wild assumptions about what is or isn't good for a stranger on an OCD forum who is trying to combat OCD, most likely with the help and guidance of their therapist. So unless you have a degree and you are their therapist, you do not get to make decisions or comments contradicting what they've been told to do. And if you're going to come onto an OCD forum and tell people not only not to do their ERP but to purposely say the same things they wrote paragraphs about being triggered by, you need to go. Not just off the post but off this forum entirely.
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@excalibre-hotmessexpress If you continue to behave inappropriately here, I'll be showing my therapist screenshots of this conversation.
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@excalibre-hotmessexpress Relax. I hope you realize the poster posted a question asking for advice, that means listening to all perspectives. His mother is correct in believing that grades are important, the issue is her approach is too harsh. Poster can go to therapy by himself, but he/she needs to go to counseling with his/her mother. It is very easy to advice someone "go make mistakes", but when he goes home he is going to be the one dealing with his family. You must take that into consideration. Also, the ultimate goal is to stop finding reassurance in grades as a measure of one's value. It isn't so much about his mother's approval. PS. I know what ERP is, I'm not sure why you would assume I didn't know? PS2. I can take a screenshot and show my therapist too 😒
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@Maria 1. I never said you didn't know what ERP was. 2. You have repeatedly defended the mother and made the issue about them seeking reassurance in their grades when they've made it clear that this isn't the issue- the issue is that their mother is belittling them and abusing them to the point of making it impossible for them to do ERP. And you can show your therapist this all you like, but the fact is is that your behavior is inappropriate, and mine isn't. So what is your therapist going to do? Because you will be the one getting in trouble for this, as you deserve at this point.
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half my high school classes*
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Did you purposefully fail? Because that's what the original poster said he would rather do.
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I had avoided a lot with school specifically, but I did do it in other areas of life as well. School for some reason has been the biggest trigger that sends me into avoidance and it has been for the longest time. Does anybody relate? If so, what did you do to help besides therapy? In high school I used to sit in the bathroom stalls for hours so I could avoid going to classes. I was struggling to keep up because my OCD makes me perfect my school work so much so to the point where I’d never turn it in because I’d never be satisfied with what I’d produce. I’d get so incredibly frustrated with myself and the fact that I could never meet my own standards, never mind the rubrics given. I took ages analyzing all my writing, all my answers, all my google slides and I burnt myself out. So I stopped trying. I stopped turning in work because I’d never be satisfied. I’d cry because I felt I wasn’t good enough. Then I’d be missing assignments, getting them done but not submitting them because I was too ashamed. So, I avoided classes because I’d be in trouble or be called out for not getting anything done. Unfortunately this habit bled into my first year of college last year, and OCD coupled up with depression, made going to the dining hall and attending classes even worse. So I avoided it all together. It’s so hard being a freshman in college, so so hard. I unfortunately failed out of that school but I tried to medically withdraw either semester. No, I wasn’t partying, or drinking or smoking or hanging with the wrong people. I was a college freshman struggling with ocd and depression. I’m trying to not make excuses for myself either because I’m well aware this is my fault and I’m trying to reverse it now at community college. Right now I’m trying to get those Fs turned into Ws from my old school so I can fix my gpa. I want to transfer, I want to be a forensic psychologist, I want to be independent, I want to be ok. It’s gonna take me so long to transfer from community college but that’s on me. I’m willing to put in the work. I’m so embarassed, please help me.
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i’m trying to not let the thoughts bother me but it’s just so stressful. even me typing that feels like i’m lying when i know i’m not. i’m scared because even my therapist tells me that it’s just ocd, but in the back of my mind i slightly don’t believe her, and its making me scared that i AM like those people and im gonna act on something. sometimes in social moments i get a quick thought of me being an outcast because im like those people who are sick in the head and act on that stuff, and it just makes me feel like i truly am gonna eventually act on something. another thing that bothered me is earlier my mom yelled at me for not doing school work (it was well deserved im really slacking on it) and i had like no reaction to her screaming. it had me thinking what if i have no empathy etc etc, and what if i get mad that she yelled at me and i do something involving those thoughts. how do i TRULY know it’s ocd? like i try to remind myself and be like “dude, your therapist said it’s ocd, she isn’t wrong” but the back of my mind is like “she is wrong, it’s not ocd and she just happened to misdiagnose you. you are gonna act on those thoughts and it’s your fate”. please someone respond if you read all of this, im really struggling
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Having ocd is so incredibly exhausting and depressing- my mom and dad argued with me for over an hour talking about how im a pain to be around, go in too many loops, and ruin everything and everyones mood… this conversation started with me saying im stressed out because of school and that i dont want to go because im exhausted- and idk if this is like ocd directly but it takes me like 2 hours to get ready in the morning because i need to look PERFECT and the same everyday literally 😭 and that process feels so exhausting every morning at 6am but i will NOT go to school without going through with it- i will literally be crying and shaking and wanting to go home the minute i get to school if even a single strand of my hair is not perfectly straightened or any blemishes or flaws are showing- and i cant even walk to school or anything bc im scared the humidity will mess with my hair and everything- and it just really affects my life? And yeah its freaking exhausting. And i have two more years of highschool and I dont know if im going to make it 😭i get super stressed over grades too because i need them to be extraordinary otherwise its a fail. Nothing below 95%. And thats also tiring! 😁 and my mom told me today “medication IS NOTTTT AND OPTION!!!” Like oh okay so im just cooked 😭 and therapy isnt really helping me at all- i feel like what im being told is so basic and generic and it doesn’t help me when im in a huge ocd episode- which is often… and what i hate most is like my mom says “don’t come to me with your problems after 6pm…” im sorry i cant schedule my feelings 😭 im so tired
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