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2 years is a long time to reminisce. it’s also a long enough time to add details here and there. i don’t want to offer you any reassurance, but try to not find answers. the more you try to remember that night, the more you will convince yourself that it’s true of what you’re afraid of. try to let go and move on. i don’t want to offer any reassurance, but. (1) you would remember cheating on your boyfriend. (2) someone would have said something by now. no more trying to remember! stay calm and take care 💕
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Agh my boyfriend is still friends with him and they hang out a lot and I wanna ask so badly but I know that I will look insane :( .
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I meant to say I don’t think I did but I remeber complaining I was cold ^ but she was originally in the middle of me and the dude then she cuddled on top of him I guess and I was just there on the other side .
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yes, do not ask. you’re not crazy, but try not to seek for reassurance. it’s very important to take note of you remembering saying that you were cold. if you could of remembered that, i guarantee that you would remember cheating. i know it’s hard and you feel some sort of guilt, but letting go and continuing on is the most important thing you can do to heal.
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@luna ✨ I feel very guilty I feel so sick . I have so many other things I worry about too if you look through my posts. It really sucks :(
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@Missemily Oh I realized you can’t look through my posts but I’m also convinced I used a dating app and dont remeber . I had apps to find friends and I’m convinced I cheated there too etc etc list goes on .
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oh trust me, i’ve worried about everything and anything. the list is endless. i am no health expert, but you might have false memory ocd. i struggle with this theme every single day. i’ve made myself believe i’ve done the worst of the worst. there are no right words to describe this kind of pain. i am always feeling guilty and shameful. every time i go through one of my episodes, i’ve learned the same thing: i will never know. no matter how much i try to remember, i still will not know. there is no reassurance or anything that i can do to remember everything piece by piece. we are so consumed by thinking we did it, but why not think about not doing it? why do we only think we have the option of thinking we did do it and not the possibility of not doing it? i know it’s hard to accept the uncertainty and live with guilt and shame, but the only way to heal is to let go and accept that we will never know.
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i don’t know if i made any sense because today i can’t type x) what i meant is, why only think of “i did do it”. let’s have the mindset of “but what if i didn’t do it?”
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So recently my husband was telling me that I better not think about someone else during intimacy and it triggered a memory that I believe is 1-2 years ago. Me and my bf were being intimate and I had just watched a movie with a certain celebrity said celebrity popped into my mind. Along with him being on top of me and being the one being intimate with me. I cannot remember if I continued with it and kept imagining it until the end or not but I can’t imagine doing that because I feel so guilty about it now. However I do know it never happened before and its never happened again. I find my partner the sexiest person alive and the thought of cheating makes me sick it’s something I would never do even when my brand wanders to fantasize I always stop it so idk it feels confusing to me. The memory kinda just popped into my head so I honestly don’t know how real majority of it is or if any of it is. If I did do that, is that cheating? Should I confess. I feel I shouldn’t as it would just cause insecurity for my partner and I don’t want that but I’m worried I cheated somehow if I really did imagine the celebrity the whole time we were intimate.
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