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- 3y
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- 3y
I can relate to this so much. My first episode of ocd was false memory ocd it is TERRIFYING. If i reassure you it will just make things worse. But ocd loves to play mindgames. It has terrorizing anxiety on its side and it will win. So dont play.
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- 3y
I just can't live with myself if it is something that I actually happened. And there's no way for me to find out. I don't want to lose everything because of a ocd spiral. But at the same token my boyfriend has every right to leave me if he wants to. This hurts so much
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- 3y
@tiredsoul See your playing the what if game again. If i listened to ocd im a pedophilic child molester murderer who sexually azsaulted her friends anf family. Ocd loves to make shit up. Its like a dramatic bitch, stop giving it attention it shuts.up
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- 3y
@Lucywilefire Thank you. I haven't been able to talk to anybody about this. If I don't listen to it, how do I know if it's true or not? I know that's a stupid question, the possibility of this could be real, and I'd be lying to myself. I'm partially aware that it's spiraling, but what if it's actually real and I'm just trying to lie to myself so I can have everything I want in life. You don't have to answer this, I'm just kind of typing out what's going on in my brain
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- 3y
@tiredsoul Omg its like hearing me talk about ocd. I have a false memory of molesting my sister when i was 14. What makes it worse is hearing about child on child sexual abuse and people who ACTUALLY did it. I spent so much time on that in junior year and it tanked my grades for a bit. You cant answer the question because there is never enough evidence for ocd
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- 3y
@tiredsoul I also struggle with pocd false memory, my ocd says I molested a kid when I was like 13-15 and sometimes it feels so real and convincing and sometimes I’m for sure I didn’t do it, the thing is ocd is a liar and there is no way to know for certain so you have to accept the uncertainty and show yourself kindness. Also refuse to ruminate or do compulsions it enforces the thoughts and makes it so much worse
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- 25w
Hey so a couple months ago (7-8) I remember being upset at my family member. Like she was talking too much while I was annoyed and remember wanting her to be quiet. I got an intrusive thought like a really bad image of doing something really bad to her, and my hand twitched to the side a little? Like it felt like I was about to?! And I remembered thinking "if I do this, I'll get in trouble". I got up and left to the bathroom and felt horrified! I was thinking "did I want to act out? Did the only reason I didn't act out was because of getting in trouble? If there was no consequences, would have I done it?! Does this mean this whole time I've been using OCD as an excuse?" I remember I couldn't sleep for 3 nights because of how bad the anxiety was, I was crying and I felt very guilty like I should turn myself in to a mental hospital. I couldn't eat for many days or be near her because of that thought and twitch I had! I'm worried it was an impulse or I actually wanted to hurt her. And even to this day I still ruminanate about this. Like last night I couldn't sleep well I kept waking up every two hours and asking myself "am I capable?" I couldn't eat last night. Sometimes I move on from it like I forget that happened but when I remember, I feel distressed about it! I don't want to be an evil person or do bad actions towards anyone! I'm even scared to be angry because of this because I'm scared I have more "chance" of acting out due to anger. Like was it an impulse and I held back? Is this even OCD? Please help, I'm really scared!
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- 20w
I’m reaching out for educational and self-awareness purposes, hoping to better understand something I’ve been mentally struggling with for several years. Around five years ago, I began having a deeply distressing memory involving the fear that I may have acted inappropriately toward my younger sister when I was around 13–14 years old. The details are vague, fragmented, and unclear—but ever since this thought first appeared, I’ve treated it as if it were a real event. I’ve carried immense guilt, fear, and anxiety for years, convinced that I must have done something horrible. Despite asking my sister (who remembers absolutely nothing, has never shown signs of discomfort, and has told me more than once that she would’ve spoken up if anything had happened), the doubt and guilt never went away. The memory feels real, yet there is no external confirmation, no direct recall, and no evidence beyond my own mental images and fear. I’ve also struggled with obsessive thoughts in other areas, such as health anxiety since childhood—frequent doctor visits, checking my pulse, obsessing over illness—and only recently learned about false memory OCD, which aligns with my experience. I’m not currently seeking therapy but would greatly appreciate your professional opinion from an educational perspective: Does this sound more like a real memory, or more likely a false memory created by OCD or anxiety-related mechanisms I am stuck between a normal person or a s*xual abuser
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- 18w
Worried about situation that happened with nephew new memory or not idk I'm scared Worried about situation that happened with nephew I'm so scared when I was holding my nephew I thought " I wonder if this would sexually stimulate him" ( not the exact words don't want to be extremely graphic) I began to bump him like how people bump babies on their hips he was on my stomach cuz that's how he was handed to me. Now I fear I remember also thinking if his diaper would stimulate his private part or something like that IDK LIKE I FEEL LIKE I REMEMBER THINKING THAT BUT ALSO DON'T??? LIKE O FEEL LIKE maybe I thought this at a different time for whatever weird reason but then I'm scared that it makes sense it would happen when I held him. Does it change the situation?????I feel extremely sick because I don't know why I would think that or if it was my brain or me. Idk if it was or wasn't cuz I felt his diaper against me? Was I curious if it would? It feels like I was curious but wth why???Was it just something weird I thought? Am I actually a monster? I had been having disturbing thoughts I'm pretty sure that were related to my POCD in general for a while before that. Ik my nephew didn't get hurt but I'm so scared why would I do something like that I feel so sick and disgusted. I know away from that situation I have no sexual interest or attraction towards him I'm just so freaked out and disgusted. I don't wanna be a bad person and I don't want my worst fear to be true.
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