Anything or any word related to sexuality is making me anxious... even when someone says the word “straight” (which being straight is all I want to be) it’s like I get anxious about it... I only want to remain straight 😭😭😭 I don’t want to be anxious about it at all 😭😭😭it’s making me think I’m in denial of being gay or bisexual constantly 😭😭😭

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I'm sorry that you're suffering. I wish I could help but you are getting into reassurance seeking and it isn't going to help anyone. Take a break tonight and find something relaxing to do. Even with the thoughts and sensations.

I feel this way a lot too. The longer this so ocd goes on it's like the ocd is looking for any kind of certainty even if its twisting everything ive ever known. The best thing I can think to suggest to you is that you just let the thoughts and feelings be there. It doesn't really matter. Our bodies are going to do what we have conditioned them to do so now it's all about cutting yourself a break and treating it like a fly that keeps buzzing around your head and landing on you. It's irritating, it's so hard to ignore but in the grand scheme of things, whether it keeps coming around or not, it's not going to kill you. It's hard. I am telling you this but I struggle to do it too. I hope you find some peace.

This is typical of so-Ocd. A good thing for erp

I read an article awhile ago about losing insight. You're searching so hard for certainty that now the ocd is flipping things. What you have to remember is that is doesn't matter why. You know who you are because you knew before all this started. It might not feel like it but the reality is, there is no you other than who you are in any given moment. The future hasn't happened and the past is behind you. Focus on being who you want to be (not straight or gay or anything else) but a good person, a friend, a family member etc and let your ocd do what it wants. Don't try to dissect it.