I just realized that I do compulsions all day in my head ...

Yes. I dissect things for lond periods of time, overthink everything, and I get 'stuck thoughts' whether it's a song, phrase, word, or even memories (real and false).. when I'm on one of my strong themes i dissect the theme trying to prove or disprove it, then I just end up with elaborate alternate endings to my ruminated scenarios.. OCD sucks lmao

I often will sort evidence of things in true vs not true. Lots and LOTS of ruminating. And yeah i dissect certain things piece by piece, verbally walk through situations from start to finish and comb over every little detail. Repeat certain things. Lots and lots of internal dialogues. Comparing thought a vs thought b. Whats true, whats fake, telling my entire lifes story ?

I'm doing the self help route as well since I cant find an OCD therapist. In seeing a therapist for the PTSD, but she's just not trained in OCD so when I started cbt with her, she was enabling the OCD. If you dont have the right therapist it can add fuel to the fire. So self help it is. Any books yall would recommend?

I just bought the self compassion workbook by Kristen Neff which was recommended by Kimberly Quinlan who is an OCD therapist from her podcast “your anxiety toolkit” I haven’t started it yet!

Me too...it took me a long time to realize they were a huge part of my compulsions

YES!!! I spend time just thinking alone in my room for hours figuring stuff out

SAME HERE sometimes I’m like what if the reality in my head is my ACTUAL REALITY but it’s so stupid cause I’m like not even losing touch with reality I’m just in my hesd

You mind giving me a little insight as to how yours work? Like do you have to disect things for a long time and overthink certain thoughts?

Did you just read my mind? Lmao I do every bit of that

I always try to stop myself and go "i dont have time for this. I can do this later" or i say to myself "i already talked about this" and try the postponing method. each time i catch myself i put it off for a little bit longer. Some days it works and others it not so works

I would say do CBT first so you have the emotional tools to handle ERP

Ive bought so many self help books...probably going to buy the ocd mindfulness workbook soon. Ive been trying to apply certain techniques like identifying my compulsions so i can recognize them and its a lot harder than youd think!!

Cbt is VERY hard. Ive always been a very cynical thinker over my life, and at 28 its a lot of habits to break. Ive been taking it very slowly since i cant afford a therapist

Wow are we all triplets or some shit? Lmao this is awesome

Not our situation tho but you get me lol

Its really cool to see all the similarities. Helps me not feel so alone.

I'll check them out. I have " "Brain Lock", I just haven't been reading lately... I had a couple of good weeks and thought that i didnt have OCD that bad anymore... then it came back as it does

No trust me , mine was gone for a whole month!! Out of no where and then it all came back with one panic attack

Ugh its horrible because then i realize ive spent a WHOLE DAY just inside my head.

Yep me too

WOW YOU BOTH DESCRIBED ME !!!!

Well it’s a relief that I’m not the only one out there!! But like how can we break these compulsions??

I would love to know myself lol I cant find an ocd therapist

Agree. CBT is a great starting point. Its what im working with now.

lol dude I bought a crap ton of self help books too!! Like so many and also mindfulness book as well

So self help has been my only option in feeling out cbt

Ive also been using the youper app to do mindfulness exercises and short 8 minute meditation or body noting sessions just to help with overall awareness

Haha I’m pretty cynical as well and I’m 24 so it’s going to take me a long time too

The two i have right now are Stop Obsessing! How to overcome your obsessions and compulsions by edna foa and freedom from obsessive compulsive disorder by jonathan Grayson. A friend of mine who also has ocd suggested "feel the fear and do it anyway" to me

Yea this definitely helps quite a bit :)

Same here

I’m stuck in my head literally !!!

Same I’m having trouble deciding between CBT and like ... Exposure response therapy

Yea I’m gonna go for that first

How are you doing with CBT? You like it?

One called S.T.O.P obsessing by Edna something