My mind won’t shut up. So many things are bothering me right now and it’s all OCD related I think 😭 POCD, HOCD and Harm OCD all at once and it’s terrifying

I totally know what you are going through. Sounds to me like it could be false memory ocd which I’ve gone through as well. The best thing to do is accept uncertainty. I know I hate it too but it’s best to say maybe it happened maybe it didn’t and move on with your day. There were times I knew deep down that I didn’t do something but the more I thought about it, the more it added details and more thoughts and it just made everything worse. I hope you feel better soon and remember you are not alone

@Just Breathe ❤️ Ig, like I remember the day in question, I did something I’m not proud of, I’ve told everyone and they just tell me to let it go and that it’s not the worst thing that I could ever do, but just as I seas starting to let go of it and accept and move on, my brain said but what if you did this also, what if that, and I’ve never questioned it before and my brain is creating mental images. Idk, it’s all really scary, but I’ll try to sit with the uncertainty, thank you

Right now I’m dealing with 3 different themes all at once and it’s really scary. Pocd which is my main theme trying to convince me that I like/want my thoughts or I feel like I’m aroused by them. HOCD trying to convince me that I’m bi or a lesbian when I know I’m straight but it’s trying to tell me I have a crush on my friend and it’s telling me that because my niece and my friend are both blonde, that if I came out it would be because of my niece which is not true. So that’s freaking me out. And then harm ocd because my moms friend has stage 4 cancer and I keep getting intrusive thoughts saying really bad things about her and I would never want such a thing. Ever. So yeah I’m really done with OCD. But yeah like I said above just know you aren’t alone. We are all in this together. Just stay strong that’s the best thing we can all do

@Just Breathe ❤️ You’re not alone either, OCD is really difficult, I can tell you’re a really kind and good person, just your OCD make you doubt it, I really hope you get through this, ERP is really difficult, but hopefully it can help

@OCDHaver Everyone makes mistakes. But you learn from it. You grow from it and you let it go. I’ve done things I’m not proud of either and people have told me the same thing. To just let it go. It’s really hard when ocd tries to latch onto it and make it worse than it seems but you have to be kind to yourself and try to be your own friend. What if a friend of yours came up to you and told you exactly what happened to you? You would let them know the same thing. You would tell them yeah maybe it wasn’t the wisest choice but it’s time to take a deep breath and let it all go. The past is gone there’s nothing any of us can do to change it but we can change our future. The future is bright and full of memories to make and goals to reach. Don’t let it hold you back any longer. I hope this helps. I know what it’s like to feel so haunted by something in the past but worrying about it isn’t going to change anything. Hope this helps :)

@Just Breathe ❤️ Wow, this was actually really helpful, thank you. I have definitely learned from it and would never wish to be that person again, I just want to help my family and friends in any way that I can now and be a good person. And I know reassurance isn’t great, but you seem like a very caring and kind person, I wish you didn’t have OCD, it really is the worst type of bully, I hope one day, these intrusive thoughts you’re having go away, I wish you the best!💜

@Just Breathe ❤️ Also I know you’ve probably heard this before and I’ve been through it too. When you try to confess everything to everyone it becomes a compulsion and it adds to the vicious cycle of OCD. I have the same compulsion as well as reassurance seeking too. It’s easier said than done to not do it but it’s possible. Just gotta keep getting up and trying your best every day

@OCDHaver I’m glad I could help! I can see that you are a good person and I wish you all the best. Thank you I truly appreciate that. I wish we all didn’t have OCD but unfortunately it’s something we have to face but the bully won’t win. We are all winners we just gotta stand up to it and work on our ERP. I hope whatever your struggles are go away too and like I’ve said, you are most definitely not alone. I know it’s hard when we get caught up in our heads and it feels like no one could ever possibly understand what we are going through but there are millions of people out there with the same struggles. I hope you feel better!