Tw I need some advice or something, Im losing my it. I dont even feel like a guy inside anymore, wtf is going on. Someone here told me its common for people to realize their gender is different once they realize their sexuality. Wtf do I even do? Im even more discouraged and embarrassed to seek therapy now, not feeling like im even a man? This is disgusting and horrible, am I actually changing? It feels like this is my true self that was hidden all these years. Wtf wtf!!!??

also reminder that OCD attacks our biggest fears & will make us think the scariest of things so please don’t listen to it. let your OCD say what it wants & remember there is no true meaning behind OCD intrusive thoughts, they’re just fears that we obsess over. <3

Thats a very kind reply ty. The thing is it feels like the thoughts have already become true, it dosent feel intrusive or like ocd at all. I cant really comprehend whats happening, just overwhelmed and sad. How do you suggest I tell my family Im struggling? I cant tell them I think im gay and feel like a woman inside, thats awfully embarrassing which makes me want to isolate myself even more. It even feels like I want these thoughts. Im scared this is just my life now

@Imaan7 i truly think the best thing is to open up to a trusted loved one, maybe sitting down with someone you trust & say “hey i am struggling & would really appreciate it if you could just listen.”... or if that’s not comfortable, reaching out to a therapist is always helpful. you should NEVER bottle up your anxiety & suffering. it will only make it worse. intrusive thoughts also don’t always mean things that “pop” into your brain, they can be constant & relentless & last hours. it just purely means thoughts that cause distress. & it’s definitely not embarrassing to struggle...you’re human & i have had a theme where i felt not “woman enough”. from my experience, the feeling of “do i want these thoughts?” “why does it feel like i want to think this or feel this?” always came up & i understand the fear & uncomfortablility. but at the end of the day, there is no such thing as “woman enough” or “man enough”...just focus on you being a human alone & work from there. take it one day at a time, sit with uncertainty. face it & it becomes less scary. open up to people, accept support, never isolate. & don’t let distressing thoughts control your life. don’t put emphasis on defining whats “man enough” & focus more on working on your mental health.

@hope Hope-Brilliant!!! I feel like your last sentence is really the key. Awareness of the disorder and emphasis on your mental health. Thank you for all your words. Imaan7, the key here is knowing you have OCD, and being aware of it. Thoughts saying is not OCD are part of OCD. Remember, it’s just OCD. Seek help for OCD!!! Wish you both the best!!!

Hooked up with a girl once, thats about it

@Imaan7 I guess it really dosnt matter was just curious