It’s so weird so I saw this porn and the girl looked a little too young so I went detective mode to make sure I didn’t see anything illegal and I was able to confirm that she started doing porn when she was 21 so I’m fine but in my mind it’s still like WHAT IF YOU’RE WRONG AND YOU DID SEE SOMETHING BAD? I hate constantly having these thoughts. I try really hard to make sure everything I watch is as ethical as possible but as the nature of the internet is, sometimes there’s uncertainty because I can’t confirm everything. I know we’re suppose to accept uncertainty for recovery but being concerned if someone is truly of age seems like an acceptable level of certainty to try to get, right? But then I’m not even satisfied with that. I’m like what if the info I found out isn’t true! What if they’ve been lying for years? And the fears feel so real. Really rattles my brain trying to figure out how to approach this ERP style without feeling like I did something horrible.