745
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JessA 🌞JessA 🌞
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You’re never going to be sure of your sexual orientation, which generally isn’t black and white with most people anyway, you just need to disengage from your OCD thoughts and feelings and live life the way you think you want to, whilst resisting compulsions. You will never ever ever get that certainty I promise you. People without OCD don’t even have absolute certainty! They just don’t care! Maybe I’m gay, maybe I’m not but I like this girl and I’m going to pursue it regardless of my thoughts and lack of certainty. Starve OCD by not giving it your attention, respond to it with 🤷🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️ and eventually it will actually ease and you’ll be content being in a heterosexual relationship whilst having no certainty of your sexuality
Sparker1289Sparker1289
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I needed to hear this. Thank you. Not even from a reassurance stand point but as a reminder that we all live on a spectrum and its important to understand that and realize that being stuck in an OCD loop is forcing black and white thinking
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I just have a strong feeling I want to be with a man and it absolutely sucks. I've never had this before it absolutely sucks. It's been like this just over a year now. I feel like I have a weight on my neck
JessA 🌞JessA 🌞
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@Ihateocd83 It does suck. Starve your OCD by no longer giving it your attention. Leave it unanswered. There’s nothing to figure out
JessA 🌞JessA 🌞
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@Sparker1289 No worries. Almost nothing in life is black and white. It’s so unfortunate that our OCD brains can convince us there is. It’s not your fault. The front of our brain is overactive. Constantly looking for answers to questions that are unanswerable. We have to learn to disengage from that disordered thinking it produces
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@JessA 🌞 Could you give me some advice on my situation please 😔
JessA 🌞JessA 🌞
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@Ihateocd83 The treatment is to not try and answer that question. OCD will make it feel truly real like you really could be what you’re afraid of. It’s goal is to keep you stuck. You need to not try and answer the question. You’re not alone in this. But OCD will never be satisfied. You need to engage in treatment. Resist compulsions and do ERP. Asking for reassurance is a compulsion, adding to never ending cycle. Break the cycle
JessA 🌞JessA 🌞
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@Ihateocd83 I don’t know if I’m bisexual and I know my OCD would love for me to try and work it out but I’m not falling for that trap. I’m happily in love with my boyfriend and will be in a heterosexual relationship until the day I die 😊 never knowing for sure my sexual orientation
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@JessA 🌞 But I'm feeling in denial. When I get stressed it's worse I feel like freaking out and just shouting out ok I'm gay 😔
JessA 🌞JessA 🌞
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@Ihateocd83 When you have those moments say to yourself “maybe, maybe not” you’ll experience a lot of anxiety and a strong urge to ruminate but if you can resist that you can regain control over your life rather than letting OCD control it
Imaan7Imaan7
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Sorry dude, thats what I feel too, makes me not even want to interact with women. It really sucks
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Does it make you feel like you want to be with him ? ...
745745
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It’s making me feel like I want it when I don’t... I don’t ever wanna be attracted to any man ever... I puke and gag to explicit thoughts and thoughts of kissing him and stuff... mental compulsions make me puke and gag...
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I hear you...I struggle to even think about women anymore and just have men in my head 😒. I was always one of these guys who would always be checking women out etc. I'm so fucked off with my life 😞
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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What would ruminating be in that situation. It feels like I want the thoughts
JessA 🌞JessA 🌞
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Trying to work out if you want the thoughts
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@JessA 🌞 It feels like I want to date men. But it makes me so sad and upset 😔
JessA 🌞JessA 🌞
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@Ihateocd83 If you try and work out if you do or don’t want to date men. OCD will always have a hold on you. Let go and engage in treatment
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Treatment as in what tho ?. I appreciate your help by the way 🙏
JessA 🌞JessA 🌞
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ERP and resisting compulsions. Do you have an OCD therapist?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I used to but not anymore
JessA 🌞JessA 🌞
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Why not currently?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Because of funds
JessA 🌞JessA 🌞
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Nathan Peterson and Kimberley Quinlan offer an online program. Look into it
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@JessA 🌞 Oh ok ...thanks very much
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