What i really want to know is how to use ERP in the lost of attraction to woman thoughts and feelings. Like thoughts i have never been attracted to woman IT was all a lie. The feelings of feeling repulsed to the womans body , IT doesn't arrouse me anymore. I lost IT when hocd started. And the part i cant Push into is this. I agree with all the attraction to men. I agree with the feelings of arrousel to men the feelings of feeling gay, the feelings of wanting sex with men. But the other part is harder. And i dont know to do Erp for that. And that is the part i lost my attraction to woman, i want to recover im so ready to do what i need to. I Just only need someone who can tell my how to the Erp for those thoughts ; - feel no attraction to woman means im gay - feeling like i dont like straight sex anymore - feelings like woman vigina is repulsing me now( very hard one cause i liked it much before this) - feelings like i never get my love back for woman - specially the rocd thoughts i should leave my girlfriend cause im in denail etc - when i see a men and woman i feel only attraction to men and i go check Them Both - feeling like my sexuality changed over time. - i have backdoorspikes cause i feel no anxiety and feel like i like and want the thoughts

So been trying to do erp with my therapist for a while now, and tis really hard and feels like it's not working. Il get this weird sensation or feeling that makes me feel"gay" or as if I'm attracted to someone, and I know my therapist keeps telling me" you don't have to put meaning into the thoughts or feelings" but that seems impossible to do because and I'm sorry to say, it makes me feel that specific way. And I'll use the Erp quotes, "maybe maybe not" or"the more I struggle, the worse it gets" or"these feelings and thoughts are here, but I'm choosing to let them be" and I'll do nothing and try to let it be here but it's so distracting and feels very real, and it's like this sensation, small or big and it last all day, and even just sitting with it isn't working. And my therapist will tell me"you don't have to believe in it" and I'm sorry I feel like if it were that easy, OCD would have never been a problem in the first place, or live with uncertainty, however it doesn't feel like uncertainty, but feels very truthful or valid. Idk what I'm doing wrong tho

After I started experiencing SOOCD for the past 5 years, I have had absolutely no sexual drive and no (barely anything) attraction to men. I’ve also sort of been emotionally numb for a very long time and I think it’s due to the years of anxiety and horrible depression. Ive been living like a rock, im just floating through life. I have no interests, no hobbies, zero motivation, no goals, and i feel like im going to be stuck like this forever. TMI !!!!!! I think the last time I felt actual genuine arousal/excitement was when I reconnected with my ex a couple years back and that was literally just for a day because SOOCD shut that down quickly. Since my SOOCD started when i was young i never fully felt aroused when I was being intimate. I wanted to do it and I wanted to feel things so badly but I couldn’t/i couldn’t get fully turned on. A month ago I was starting to feel happier, the intrusive thoughts/compulsions were very rare, and I was rarely experiencing the grounds response or or triggered (even though i still had no libido or attraction). I was doing pretty good and I recently got into a new relationship and my boyfriend literally woke up the attraction, I slowly felt myself becoming less numb. Just hanging out with him I started thinking “wow he’s so cute” “i want him to kiss me” “i wish he would hold my hand” “his smile is nice why is he so fine”. I felt something so sweet and It made me so so happy. We had such sweet dates and I was starting to feel like I was getting myself back. I still didn’t have a sexual drive (it was waking up slowlllyyy) and my flare up was starting to get worse so I couldn’t fully enjoy being intimate. My flare up has gotten pretty bad again lately i’m questioning all the things I felt with him and all the attraction and feelings are being clouded by intense anxiety, doubt, and worry. It triggers the SOOCD thoughts so bad and in the shower i was worrying that my anxiety, checking (of arousal, attraction, emotions, etc), other compulsions, and numbness are going to ruin my relationship. It just makes me worry that i’ll never get those feelings back. TMI!!!!! i just want to feel h*ny again man and I want to feel those feelings I felt for my man 😭 Literally 6 years of numbness, depression, anxiety and I finally felt somewhat normal 😭 he was waking things up and my intrusive thoughts messed it all up again. Anyways, I just want to know if anyone has experienced this and if ERP helped at all. I have a therapist now (thank you nocd) and I’m finally going to do ERP, try to fix my depression, and stuff like that. I’m trying to take the advice of someone who commented on one of my posts. They say that i need to continue my life no matter what ocd tells me. It’s getting harder again but I just hope the work im about to put in will allow me to finally enjoy my life.

I have been going through Hocd for a year now, started when I got an std off a girl and I gained aload of anxiety off this scared that other girls would see me as disgusting. Then when I got it sorted out after 3 months, I tried with a girl and condoms made me soft so I struggled to keep hard and I asked the question in my head does this make me gay. Then next a girl asked me it when I didn’t stay hard. This really messed with my head because all up the years my biggest hate would to be gay as I love being straight and I clearly was but this really messed with my head. Stupid things like not being able to listen to male artists and hyper awareness of bodily functions, did I think someone was goodlooking of the opposite gender, do I want to kiss them. I’d get an increased feeling of anxiety I wouldn’t want to but my head because of this would be like do I. I have a girlfriend at the moment and I always get hard with her when I’m with her I know how I feel and everything but the Hocd really affected my head I did a lot of compulsions and lots of reassurance seeking at the start. A lot of irrational thoughts come into my head. I want to be normal for my girlfirnd because I really do love her and I can tell when I’m out of my head that I’m attracted to women ofc I get the oh am I lying to myself and all this stuff. Any tips on how to help with this?