Like right now, I know I want nothing more than for a guy to look at me the way I’ve always imagined, but recently my brain can’t see it happening. It’s like I’ve stressed myself out so much that my brain is exhausted thinking about it. I can’t even imagine guys anymore. I’ve just had so many bad experiences it’s like nah give up and just live your life alone. I don’t want fhat, I know what I want! But I feel completely dead inside when it comes to the thoughts I used to love

Been here! I am currently going through a marriage separation. There have been plenty of days I feel exhausted by the thought of dating again. Then I have some days where I get excited at the possibilities of dating again. I think our feelings for others will always go up and down. Even inside a relationship, it is understandable to not always like your partner and want to get away from them for a minute. Maybe try writing down some scenarios of what it would like to never date again, or to date again and it's a bad experience. Find your boundaries of what you want out of relationships. Or how you can value yourself outside of your relationships.