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Once you become used to constantly dealing with ocd, on a good day, it seems weird. Like you're missing something, ironically, that ends up triggering it. Or it may seem like you want the thoughts when its not true.
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- 3y ago
I felt this when I’m having a good day I feel weird and that’s when I’m constantly hyper aware of my emotions that ends up triggering the intrusive thoughts again and depersonalization. I feel this happens because I have gone too lone with OCD that I have tied it to my identity.
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- 3y ago
@CHZ I do believe this is exactly what happens. How long has it been since your ocd became full blown? For me its been about 3yrs, Im 28, and Ive always had ocd tendencies, but Ive lived longer without it than with it and I cant get out of the hole.
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i relate. ive been dealing with my obsessive thoughts for almost like a year and a half. and whenever i have days where, for the most part, my obsessions aren’t bothering me…. i know it’s too good to be true. i know i’m gonna end up falling into my patterns of ruminating and self sabotage. for me, its like i gave a big part of myself away to these obsessions, so when i don’t have them for a little bit, it feels weird… like “a piece of me is empty”
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- 3y ago
I feel like for me the piece I feel like is missing is self love. Because I feel like somehow I don’t deserve to be happy.
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Same, its a very tough place to be in.
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The absence of anxiety to a mind formed in existential fear is a strange feeling. For me, on good days, there's a bit of a meta-suspiciousness about the longevity of the goodness. I think that as time goes on, and the good days become increasingly the norm, the part of you that feels empty will be filled with the acknowledgement that feeling anxiety isn't necessary for your survival anymore. As well as that, as Hhrose1 mentioned, these feelings can derive from a feeling of not deserving to get better. It could be beneficial to journal your thoughts and feelings on those days to see what's actually happening in your mind to animate the overall emptiness feeling. OCD is ultimately a disease of low self-love and self-trust at it's core.
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- 3y ago
i’ve had the same thing happen to me. in actuality, for the last couple of days. i’ve moved across country with very good friends. i’ve recently been feeling so much better about having new beginnings, and moving to a completely different state, and leaving my parents place, then all of a sudden, my mind starts to ruminating on harm ocd and it’s definitely made me more anxious about the move in general now and makes me question my identity as a whole. it’s so disabling to the point where it makes me want to run away and harm myself from hurting others.
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- 18w ago
I feel like in some ways receiving a diagnosis for OCD has in some ways made things worse. I’ve always had what I called “phases” throughout life, which I now know were ocd episodes, but I didn’t really make too much of them and even if it was over several long difficult months, they’d always seem to kind of just pass. Recently I’ve begun my worse flare up in the last few years and now that I’m older I seemed professional help which led to my diagnosis. This all sounds great of course but I can’t actually afford therapy right now so I kinda just have the diagnosis but not the support so now that I realize these phases are actually this incurable mental illness I just feel like I’ve lost all hope that I’ll ever be happy and I feel like I basically obsess about obsessing at this point and it just sucks. Has anyone else had this or a similar experience?
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- 8w ago
Anyone else feel that when they aren’t experiencing a theme that their ocd is almost non existent. It almost makes me feel like I’ve been faking it, and also makes me feel ridiculous for obsessing over things. I feel sorry for myself :/ I know that my themes are valid and felt very real in the moment, but after I “get over” them I just can’t believe that I was obsessing over something that either wasn’t true or didn’t apply to me. I would also like to know how to prevent themes from reoccurring. Health, religion and existential OCD themes tend to take turns throughout my life, I just didn’t know that was it ocd. Trying to break the cycle.
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- 7w ago
For the past like 4 months, my ROCD has been getting worse and worse. I’ve been on lexapro for about 1.5 months now and it’s basically gotten rid of my anxiety and intrusive thoughts. But now I’m stuck with the constant feeling of not loving my bf. At this point I can’t even recognize him as someone I love. Like I will stare at him and try to feel something or recognize him but I feel nothing. It feels like I don’t love him anymore, but I don’t want to give up. I don’t know what to do at this point. I don’t know if it’s still the ocd and the medication is making it worse or if I’m truly just falling out of love with him. While not being on the verge of a panic attack and ruminating 24/7 is great, i feel like I’ve lost my identity and my emotions.
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