I have had multiple different times had false attraction and anxiety when I heard a woman’s voice when I was suffering with SO-OCD. Now I’ve experienced it with a child since I’ve gotten pocd. I don’t know why but it literally makes me terrified anxious and feel very agitated.

It makes me irritated feeling! I don’t understand why my brain is like this

@Anon1294 I know it’s horrible!!! The intrusive sensations are the worst of it too

I actually woke up one night with my tv on, and there was an all girls acapella group singing on tv and for some weird reason it sent me into a panic attack because of their voices. I was afraid I was attracted to them and it gave me the eeriest feeling. And then the POCD thing is so weird to me because I’m 27 and now out of absolutely nowhere I’ve started to worry that I’m a ped-, and now being around my kids or any kids freaks me out. I never had any thoughts or worries about this my entire life and now all the sudden I am terrified

@Anon1294 I’ve had many ocd themes throughout my life but pocd is by far the worst. It’s been 2 years and it’s really hard to be around my grandkids. I’m on a ton of meds and I know it’s helping but it’s a struggle every day

@Lynnrich I’m so sorry 😣 I love my kids so much I know you love your grandchildren we are not bad people. I hate that OCD attacks the things that mean the most to us. The most precious things in my life😔

@Anon1294 I know it’s not my fault but I’m so disgusted with my thoughts. I feel so much shame and guilt. It kills me

@Lynnrich I feel the same way. If you don’t mind me asking, do you feel like something may have triggered it? For me, I had just found out from my mother that my father se% assaulted me when I was too little to remember. It was the reason they got divorced. After I found that out, I started having intrusive thoughts thinking I might become like him. The thoughts sicken me so much especially because I would never want to have my children go through what I had been through. I think OCD latches to our biggest fears

@Anon1294 I agree. I don’t know if I can attribute my ocd to a specific event. Mine started a long time ago with a different theme that lasted 5-7 years. In my life I’ve had a lot of different themes. But this one started as a single intrusive thought about my granddaughter and has now taken over my life. Other than therapy I’m on 400mg of Luvox and 450mg of seroquel. And I’m still not right. I’m so sorry about your abuse. Do you remember it?

@Lynnrich That sounds similar to what has happened with me, I had a terrible intrusive thought and then I spiraled. I don’t remember my abuse at all, in fact I went my entire life oblivious to it. I do remember being in therapy when I was little, and I remember being checked for r-pe when I got a little older, but I thought it was just a normal doctors appointment. I just thought my dad didn’t want to be my father and he left. My mom told me this past summer about it. It took me a while to grasp it and realize it really did happen even though I don’t remember. And then the terrible thoughts came that we’re left up to my imagination. And then they started to attack my children. Such a terrible terrible time I’ve had these past few months

@Anon1294 I’m so sorry for your situation . Hang in there

@Lynnrich How are you doing now?

@Anon1294 Same question for you... How are you doing now?