sean93
- Date posted
- 3y
eb2021eb2021
- Date posted
- 3y
As hard as it is this was one of my terrible obsessions i had a few years ago 🙈 Thankfully i havent had it ever since 🤞 but i used to be obsessed with the thought if i could stab myself with a knife. It terrified me. As hard as it is, ignore the compulsions, talk to your family/friends/close people and keep yourself distracted as much as possible and you will come through it i promise you
sean93sean93
- Date posted
- 3y
Thank you for the advice it’s good to hear other people getting through it gives me hope.. it’s just really fresh in my mind at the moment I just need to calm down and remember what I’ve learnt
Anon1294Anon1294
- Date posted
- 3y
You’ll have to try to eliminate the fear by exposure, your fear triggered and you need to show it there’s nothing to fear again. It’s going to be okay❤️
sean93sean93
- Date posted
- 3y
Thank you. What kind of exposure do you think I should do
Anon1294Anon1294
- Date posted
- 3y
@sean93 It sounds terrifying but maybe go stand near the knive drawer, stare at the knives, or even hold one so you can invite the uncomfortable feeling and then sit with that scary feeling without trying to push it away. If that’s too scary just spend time with your daughter and show yourself there’s nothing to fear
sean93sean93
- Date posted
- 3y
@Anon1294 I can’t look at my daughter I feel sick and depressed and disconnected from her now all of a sudden 🤷♂️ I understand ocd I know what it is but it feels so real is what gets me.. thank you I will try
Anon1294Anon1294
- Date posted
- 3y
@sean93 I know EXACTLY how that feels. I randomly got POCD a few months ago (after being a mom for 5 years) and I couldn’t look at my daughter, I couldn’t go near her, I was terrified that I was a monster. And slowly I pushed myself to be near her. I sat with her and watched tv, I read her books, and brushed her hair. And then I started to naturally understand I didn’t have to fear being near her. Trust me I know that sick disgusted feeling. The very fact that we have that mean we reject those thoughts and they are not us!
sean93sean93
- Date posted
- 3y
@Anon1294 I have pocd to that’s what I normally deal with everyday not harm ocd.. my pocd started when my girlfriend was pregnant and I was freaking out until she gave birth she’s two now and I absolutely love being a dad I have no fear towards her because everyday is like an exposure.. my pocd is with anyone else I see I have to go through the same thing in my head to prove I’m not that person.. it’s exhausting.. I’m glad you got through that.. it is one of the worst themes in my opinion.. thank you for helping me
Anon1294Anon1294
- Date posted
- 3y
@sean93 It definitely is terrible especially when it attacks what you love most in the entire world. But yes my best advice is to just don’t avoid your daughter because it helps prove to your brain that this isn’t something you need to fear. You love your daughter you would never ever harm her
sean93sean93
- Date posted
- 3y
@Anon1294 You are right I feel much calmer now. I will not avoid her I won’t back down from it
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