Mama2324
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Mama2324Mama2324
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- 3y
I agree! Bc I’ll have a random intrusive thought pop in my head n if it involves harming someone I’ll play the scenario in my head. I’ll twll myself “well if it causes u distress but u don’t cry that means u wanna do it” :(
Anon1294Anon1294
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- 3y
Yeah I randomly started having terrible POCD intrusive thoughts and they make me absolutely sick. I feel like a terrible mom even though I know who I am and I know I would never ever want to harm my kids, my brain makes me check to make sure constantly. It comes from my childhood trauma I think. But I get the same terrible thoughts like “what if I really am a terrible person and this isn’t OCD” It’s the absolute worst 🙁
dogluv13dogluv13
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- 3y
feel this so much. ocd is so good at building mistrust in ourselves
Mama2324Mama2324
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- 3y
Thats exactly what I tell myself. N then if the thought keeps repeating in my head it makes me think I want to act on it😭 then I’m like “I don’t think this is OCD” wven tho deep down ik it is
Anon1294Anon1294
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- 3y
@Mama2324 Yes exactly it’s terrible 😣
dogluv13dogluv13
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- 3y
When I dove really hard into ERP in August, the first couple weeks I was making really big progress and I was really proud of myself. And thennnn once I started realizing my anxiety was going down but I was still having intrusive thoughts, I started to completely spiral out of control and my OCD was like “see!! I told you that you’re a monster and you really like the thoughts!! There is no help for you and you need to end it” and I felt the darkest I have ever felt during my decades long battle. That was back in August and I am happy to say today that I have a much better handle on things and I am continuing ERP every single day. OCD is a f***er and ERP is not easy and you are going to doubt yourself over and over again. Part of the ERP I do now is “yeah maybe I don’t have OCD maybe I do 🤷♀️” and sit with how uncomfortable and gross that feels while still showing your self compassion and acceptance. Literally the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my entire life. Sharing my story because I know how common it is to have these thoughts and these feelings about yourself and how dark and isolating and alone it feels. I promise you are not alone! And you are worthy.
Anon1294Anon1294
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- 3y
That sound like such hard work😔 I know unconditional acceptance helps to eliminate the fear but it’s so hard to accept some of these terrible thoughts it goes against everything I’ve ever known. This is the hardest struggle I have ever dealt with
dogluv13dogluv13
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- 3y
I believe you and I have been there and am even there currently. Every day is a battle when you have OCD. I don’t want to give you reassurance so I will just say that you are absolutely not alone
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