I have consumed so much different information on attraction and love and intimacy etc from places I really shouldn’t be looking and I’ve made myself extremely extremely confused to where I feel completely lost. I compulsively compare myself to things I read online to see if I feel the same way and then later I subconsciously compare those things again or get intrusive thoughts about the thing I don’t want. I may have also overly complexed certain emotions or be unintentionally exaggerating on them because I’m so desperate to figure out what they mean. This is the most real/confusing it has ever ever felt and I’m not even sure it’s ocd anymore. Has anyone else ever done this to where they feel genuinely confused and completely unsure of their feelings while also completely numb to anything positive? Almost like I’m living through my fears and seeing/feeling nothing else. I have a headache just typing this

PinkLotus

182d ago

My posts are so different from everyone else’s …

Anonymous

182d ago

I totally feel you. Have been in the place where I’m not sure what I even believe or feel anymore. What helped me was totally cutting out outside noise/ information for a while. I realized that I need time and quiet for my thoughts to settle and for my *actual* values and beliefs to become more recognizable. The internet can be great but it can also crowd your mind. Hang in there, I hope it passes soon. Sending peaceful energy to you <3

PinkLotus

182d ago

Thank you for responding , I believe I’ve done the same as well and just overwhelmed myself with too much information and comparing myself to all of it. I’m going to get off social media for a few days. Your words of encouragement are very much appreciated and I hope you’re doing well <3

Anonymous

182d ago

@PinkLotus Of course! Take good care :)

Imaan7

182d ago

I can relate a little i think. My confusion came from my own mind like I overthunk so so much, complicated my own belief system and values and my whole indentity and believed that ive always been gay and never realized it. Even though I never ever thought about that before ocd and only liked women, but now I believe that I didnt overthink it but it was all a part of the discovery process. I dont know, Im very much lost, drawing conclusions from random tangents in my own head while i was high very high states of anxiety.