I feel the same just with TOCD. 0% anxious just feeling different and like I finally know who I am. It is sad but I don’t know a way out.
I just don’t know where to go from here
Me too. I've felt the same way a lot; the obsessions and the compulsions have wore me out to a point where I'm numb. I want to be in therapy, but that's not possible for me right now. So, for now, I've tried to sit with my obsessions, instead of doing compulsions. It's hard and sometimes I end up giving into them, but progress is progress. You're not alone
Sometimes I worry that I’m depressed because I’m suppressing my true sexuality.
@BradOCD I feel that way often, both with my TOCD and HOCD
I've had sexual orientation based OCD type issues for most of my adult life (I'm currently 37), and I know how you feel. It's difficult to get out of that kind of self-analytical mindset. I tend to try to focus on love more than sex often, and that helps a fair bit. I'm sure you love your girlfriend and it's worth remembering that when you start doubting yourself 🙂