Hey there👋🏽 I've had similar thought processes before. Look, I think us OCD sufferers are way too hard on ourselves. We have to remember how disabling OCD really is. From what I've read, this is a very complex situation you're having here. But I need you to know that any actions you've made in this situation that you feel were irresponsible.... you shouldn't be so hard on yourself about it. OCD can wear us out mentally and even numb us mentally sometimes. It is an intense disorder to deal with. So please don't be so hard on yourself about this❤❤❤❤ you did the best you could considering how bad OCD effects us
Thank you so much :( it does wear me out as you said but I cannot believe I let myself do that. How did you get over the situation? I feel so hopeless
Unfortunately I didn't find a way to properly deal with the situation,😔 so I only got over it when my OCD themes switched to something else. But, I have been starting to sit with the intrusive thoughts, especially the disturbing ones. I almost cried while doing it because of the horrid nature of the thoughts. As a fellow OCD sufferer, I would just remind you that your contaminatom OCD is attaching to your mother and boyfriend because you care about them very much😊 so don't believe the bad things OCD is trying to get you to believe about your character
Thank you so much❤️ I just feel like I was sure that my mom and I doing the exposure together would make us spread covid (whether this is rational or not but in my mind I probably believed this) but yet I still went outside with her together. In my mind, going with her together after the exposure is pretty sure to contaminate people more but yet I went outside. What was wrong with me?
@alittleapple Your OCD just put a lot of pressure on you and you just made the decision you felt was best at the time🙂
@Cheetahvionic I cannot take this ocd anymore :( it keeps making me feel like I turned into a bad person but like I could have stopped myself but didn’t and let myself just ruin everything
Aww😣 I understand how you feel in all this. Just know that you're not alone. I hope you have a nice night or at least a good night's sleep🙏🏽
Thank you so much❤️ you too you’re not alone and you can reach out anytime. I am really hoping my theme changes this is just too much