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Hey there👋🏽 I've had similar thought processes before. Look, I think us OCD sufferers are way too hard on ourselves. We have to remember how disabling OCD really is. From what I've read, this is a very complex situation you're having here. But I need you to know that any actions you've made in this situation that you feel were irresponsible.... you shouldn't be so hard on yourself about it. OCD can wear us out mentally and even numb us mentally sometimes. It is an intense disorder to deal with. So please don't be so hard on yourself about this❤❤❤❤ you did the best you could considering how bad OCD effects us
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Thank you so much :( it does wear me out as you said but I cannot believe I let myself do that. How did you get over the situation? I feel so hopeless
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Unfortunately I didn't find a way to properly deal with the situation,😔 so I only got over it when my OCD themes switched to something else. But, I have been starting to sit with the intrusive thoughts, especially the disturbing ones. I almost cried while doing it because of the horrid nature of the thoughts. As a fellow OCD sufferer, I would just remind you that your contaminatom OCD is attaching to your mother and boyfriend because you care about them very much😊 so don't believe the bad things OCD is trying to get you to believe about your character
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Thank you so much❤️ I just feel like I was sure that my mom and I doing the exposure together would make us spread covid (whether this is rational or not but in my mind I probably believed this) but yet I still went outside with her together. In my mind, going with her together after the exposure is pretty sure to contaminate people more but yet I went outside. What was wrong with me?
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@alittleapple Your OCD just put a lot of pressure on you and you just made the decision you felt was best at the time🙂
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@Cheetahvionic I cannot take this ocd anymore :( it keeps making me feel like I turned into a bad person but like I could have stopped myself but didn’t and let myself just ruin everything
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Aww😣 I understand how you feel in all this. Just know that you're not alone. I hope you have a nice night or at least a good night's sleep🙏🏽
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Thank you so much❤️ you too you’re not alone and you can reach out anytime. I am really hoping my theme changes this is just too much
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Just a little side note: I know this post has been made MANY times by me. However, I had a therapist respond to my post today saying that I need to reach out to my therapist on this because the context was not clear. This made me more stressed and ruminate more. It's not the therapist fault; but not I wonder if I'm really the monster. I'm a Christian mom who feels like I've ruined my life. My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt her that I might as well do something else because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it and causing another feeling (I literally had to question what to do during this and the only thing I could come up with was to move my elbow) but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side area. Which caused another groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. Then I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me. PLEASE tell me if I am a monster. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD?
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My child was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt them that I might as well do something else because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it and causing another feeling (I literally had to question what to do during this and the only thing I could come up with was to move my elbow towards her groin area) but it came across my mind to elbow my child, and I elbowed their crotch or side area. Which caused another unwanted groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out and asked my child to move. Then I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be theirs anymore. Idk what overcame me, and in the moment, it felt like I wanted to move my elbow, but I know that can also be my OCD speaking. Right? I clearly regret it all and hate myself. I would never intentionally hurt my child; I don't know what happened in my head when this happened. I was doing SO well! Is this my POCD that I've been diagnosed with by my OCD specialized therapist? Just a struggling mom who used to be the best of the best. I'm very depressed by this. Idk what to do with myself. I live in regret now, and I just wish it would've never ever happened. I can't stop ruminating and being depressed thinking I don't deserve anything.
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since february i have "POcd". Initial symptoms were thoughts, but then I did a testing compulsion during an intimate time, and I spiraled ever since. I struggle with addiction to smut. I'm cutting that out, but I feel as if it is too late. Ive never experienced this much mental, and emotional anguish in my life. On my time on this application I have given advice to others, and helped around, but I wonder if that even applies to me. Millions of times I wish I could turn back time and be more careful. I want to prevent many things, including what led me to spiral into OCD in the first place. I'm surely having an OCD episode. I have gotten a diagnosis, but I'm still not sure. I feel evil, cause unlike many here, I tested on my body sensations and it backfired (twice) I know I'm not supposed to figure out why that is the case, but now I have to live with it for the rest of my life even if its something I don't desire. This is disgusting for me, it is abhorrent. I could've never seen this coming. Day by day I've become more fearful of living with this, "OCD". I was a normal person before this, I knew what I was attracted to, I know my preferences, so why did this come about? This is singlehandedly the most painful thing that has happened to me and I have nobody but myself to blame. I am scared of death but I also would'nt mind sleeping for years on end. My parents and brother were understanding of my situation, but I failed them regardless. I don't want them to see me this way, nor do I want them to learn more of my predicament. I'm cooked. I know it, Fin, thats all folks. I'm only 20 and I already have other diagnosed mental illness so I recklessly brought upon myself another one. Its agonizing to live through, I wish this on nobody, not even my worst enemy. I can't even identify myself at this point. Its tearing me apart.
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