Hi everyone. Just wanted to hop on here to let you know that recovery is possible. At my lowest I really did not believe that, But it really is possible. I’ve struggled with ROCD obsessive thoughts for almost 4 months now. Rumination, googling, & reassurance kept me in the continuous loop. I thought by pushing the thoughts & fears away it would help but it only made it so much worse and the thoughts were CONSTANT. I cried everyday, lost 20 pounds, started failing exams in school, nauseous 24/7, could not sleep for the life of me. Constantly in an anxious fear state. I felt detached from my own body and could t feel anything. I was scared that I was going to lose my boyfriend because of my ROCD. I’m living proof that it does get better and you are strong enough to overcome OCD. Please feel free to reach out if you need any advice or support. I still have a long way to go but I’m definitely in a better place than I was !! We are not our thoughts !!!!

Having the thoughts without anxiety is progress! It means you are getting used to the thoughts being there. I know it can feel like you agree with them since you aren’t freaking out anymore but see this as a step forward!! The less you react them the closer you are to recovery . I still get the thoughts but I try my best to act how I normally would without giving the thoughts any time or doing any compulsions

@PotatoChip21 Thank you :)

@PotatoChip21 These thoughts without anxiety are different from others, which were. It's like they're randomly popping in my head like normal thoughts and feels like the truth

@PotatoChip21 Sorry, one more question! How to deal with thoughts when you for example look at picture of your partner and find him not attractive?

What are your main themes ?

@PotatoChip21 Relationship OCD. I’m always questioning if I love my husband or want children with him anymore. Checking my feelings. I’m just constantly in my head. Never able to just be in the moment with him. I’m so anxious all the time. When I do ERP and start to lose the anxiety, I get anxiety around not feeling anxious anymore. Makes me scared it’s my truth. I found someone else attractive and that’s what trigger he horrible thoughts and fear response

@Jeanie12 Literally that’s what triggered mine too! Had just a small conversation with someone I was working with that I found attractive and I immediately felt so guilty and thought about the situation literally everyday for MONTHS & it made me rethink my relationship with my boyfriend because I didn’t understand why I was constantly obsessing and worrying 24/7. I convinced myself I even had a crush because I was thinking about it so much. Then I realized it was all anxiety related. The more I tried to push the thoughts away the more They came around which only fed into the guilt too and I would Google which made me feel worse ! My problem is that if anyone shows even the slightest interest in me I freaked out because that hadn’t happened since I was single (4 years ago!) I had intrusive thoughts of being with this other person too and I would cry every single day because I didn’t want the thoughts. Constantly felt Like someone was in my head trying to torture me.