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@lou47 Thank you for responding and saying those things. I sometimes get so down that I just think what it would feel like to just give up. This OCD is brutal and it just seems to get worse especially when dealing with consistent negativity. I am really sorry to hear about what you had/are going through too. Loss is really hard to deal with and asding the OCD to it is a different level. I know other people experience this too. This site is really good for support. Hang in there as well. You seem to be doing great.
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You will be okay my lovely. Just please try erp. I have had ocd for 40 years now and at last I realise that erp is the way through. I am struggling at the moment because some elderly friends who I saw as parents have fallen out with me because of Covid and my views. I obsess that because I told them of my intrusive thoughts I had about their grandaughter two years ago which was actually based on sharing a bed with her 5 years or so previously that they think my OCD thoughts are real and that is why they have fallen out with me which is utterly ridiculous as they were so kind to me years ago and even read up about it tk understand what I was foing through....so as you can see OCD will twist ANYTHING you doubt over. I never ever thought that they ever even considered my OCD thoughts to be 'real' until they fell out with me over covid. In fact I even thought a few weeks before this obsession that my ocd has nothing to convince me of anymore....how wrong I was! OCD will twist and twist your brain to get to you but by doing erp it will eventually come back to you. Much love xx
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Thank you and I am sorry that you have dealt with that… being made to feel like there is something wrong with you. I just started ERP not too long ago. I appreciate your encouraging words.
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im so sorry.
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I went through exactly what you are at the moment. I was going through a divorce, lost my Mum and step dad and friend and an uncle as well. The stress has caused me to have OCD over the last few years and that is what it preys on....our stress and vulnerability....you will get through this. OCD is the most vicious disorder ever but please know you are not alone. Stay strong and do erp. I am here with you. Much love x
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You are welcome. I do feel like I am a leper with this covid....well that is how they have made me feel. But then like i said OCD will latch onto your vulnerabilities and twist everything. You are not alone with this debilitating illness and you will get over it. Much love xx
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That tragedy that happened in my country Dominican Republic at the nightclub taking 221 people lives is affecting me even though I didn’t have no family members there I can’t stop thinking about it that that’s all we here and one minute we are gone I can’t stop thinking about what’s the point of all of this getting married having kids more father ect car house what’s the point of anything if we have to die anyway I never felt like this before :( I m so afraid to die I m afraid of my family dying how can I move on from this I m scared that I m wasting my life being depressed and anxious I feel that I should’ve never been going through ocd and depression how I m supposed to enjoy life going through this plus I feel guilty for struggling with mental health I m so confused. and lost 😭 why are we here doing all of this if we gonna die ? Why we have families and then have suffer from our families dying
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Today is Easter and it was supposed to be low key for me and my family but my mom invited a family member that bothers my ocd alot and now they are on their way here and I'm freaking out I already had a panic attack (still having it) and my family is not helping either they keep making comments about how they just want one holiday with no problems and some other comments and it's like I'm sorry I'm not normal like my siblings I didn't ask to be like this now I'm just hurt, upset and I locked myself in my room for the rest of day. (And I was doing so good with erp and this is like making me have a ocd relapse)
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I’m 21. The 3 year anniversary of my graduation from high school is soon. Lately, I’ve been worried about where I’m going in life and if it’s even worth it because I don’t know why I exist or what my purpose is After graduating I lost a new job I loved due to poor management on my boss’s side, they failed to teach me my job then fired me for it, and moved from my mom’s house into my dads house due to issues with my stepdad, both of which put me into a depression. I got a new job 3 months later. But ever since being fired and moving out, I feel like I’ve been in a depressive cycle of Eat, Sleep, Work, Repeat. I’ll get home and doomscroll for hours, and occasionally play games with friends at nights. Occasionally I’ll do my hobbies but usually feel guilty for it. I don’t see my friends and family nearly as much as I used to. I want to, but it feels like everything I want to do, my intrusive thoughts find a way to keep me at home. “It’s a waste of time.” “You need to be productive on your time off or you’ll go nowhere in life so stay home.” But then if I stay home it’s “you need to go out and do something.” “You’re being unproductive sitting at home all day.” “Seeing them wont make you feel better, you’ll never be happy” My girlfriend lives 6 hours away and is usually the only time I’d go outside and live and feel in the moment, but even then I’d feel guilt. I feel like my OCD makes me feel guilty for everything. She’s helped me a lot, but lately we’ve had a few issues we’ve worked past that made me fear for losing her too. I’ve felt depressed for years now. Before being fired, I usually felt pretty good and was almost normal feeling. I’d had control over my fears and intrusive thoughts of suicide and the meaning of life, and had accepted them and wasn’t afraid. I knew it wasn’t me. But lately I’ve been trying to push myself out of this depressive cycle, and it’s made my OCD and fears of suicide and if life has meaning, come right back. I’m handling it slightly better, but it’s still hard. I just want to move past this and stop questioning why I’m even doing anything, if I want to end it all, when I know for certain I don’t want to and that I get to make my own meaning in life. I have dreams, I want to get back into art. I want to move in with my girlfriend eventually and start a family. But my OCD makes me so scared to even try to make art, and it makes me so scared I won’t be happy or content with my dreams. I feel so alone and sad. I feel like life will pass me by while I’m stuck feeling this sad and scared. It sucks, but I’m trying my best to get there. Gotta keep moving
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