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@lou47 Thank you for responding and saying those things. I sometimes get so down that I just think what it would feel like to just give up. This OCD is brutal and it just seems to get worse especially when dealing with consistent negativity. I am really sorry to hear about what you had/are going through too. Loss is really hard to deal with and asding the OCD to it is a different level. I know other people experience this too. This site is really good for support. Hang in there as well. You seem to be doing great.
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You will be okay my lovely. Just please try erp. I have had ocd for 40 years now and at last I realise that erp is the way through. I am struggling at the moment because some elderly friends who I saw as parents have fallen out with me because of Covid and my views. I obsess that because I told them of my intrusive thoughts I had about their grandaughter two years ago which was actually based on sharing a bed with her 5 years or so previously that they think my OCD thoughts are real and that is why they have fallen out with me which is utterly ridiculous as they were so kind to me years ago and even read up about it tk understand what I was foing through....so as you can see OCD will twist ANYTHING you doubt over. I never ever thought that they ever even considered my OCD thoughts to be 'real' until they fell out with me over covid. In fact I even thought a few weeks before this obsession that my ocd has nothing to convince me of anymore....how wrong I was! OCD will twist and twist your brain to get to you but by doing erp it will eventually come back to you. Much love xx
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Thank you and I am sorry that you have dealt with that… being made to feel like there is something wrong with you. I just started ERP not too long ago. I appreciate your encouraging words.
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im so sorry.
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I went through exactly what you are at the moment. I was going through a divorce, lost my Mum and step dad and friend and an uncle as well. The stress has caused me to have OCD over the last few years and that is what it preys on....our stress and vulnerability....you will get through this. OCD is the most vicious disorder ever but please know you are not alone. Stay strong and do erp. I am here with you. Much love x
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You are welcome. I do feel like I am a leper with this covid....well that is how they have made me feel. But then like i said OCD will latch onto your vulnerabilities and twist everything. You are not alone with this debilitating illness and you will get over it. Much love xx
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I’m feeling kind of sad cause today was not a really good day in terms of my ocd. I was feeling kind of foggy/numb and that send me to spiraling. I’m 21 years old currently studying but my family has been having trouble with money for the last couple years(we’re just me and my mom) and I kinda want to get a job but everything is far from my home and I wouldn’t be able to return back at night, also it’s either way more expensive to move or the schedule wouldn’t let me take my classes. The point is that because of that every time my mom is stress tends to treat me bad, she speaks to me like I’m stupid or she just screams to nothing cursing all life and everything and that actually makes me feel soo bad and guilty for not doing anything, I know it’s hard for me to get a job that actually helps us without quitting school but that doesn’t stop me from feeling like I’m a burden. I want to help, I want to maybe hug her or something but I know she will be angrier and probably will reject it. So that’s it, I just feel like she punishes me for the stress she’s carrying and I get it but one day is happy and it feels like all love and the next is treating me like that, Idk it’s hard (also I feel like I shouldn’t be saying this cause it’s all my fault) 🫤
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I feel like I’ll never lead a normal life again with OCD, my thoughts have begun to be convince especially about POCD. I feel like so sad and down that this will be my life forever. I’ll never get to fall in love again without intrusive thoughts. I’ll never be worth falling in love with. I can never be intimate again. I’m just done, my life is over. I can’t even look at my nephew and niece anymore without the smile fading. It feels like I’m so nasty and then my brain convinces me this is how I feel. That there’s some part of me that is a p*do and that’s it. I’m a disgusting human being for that. I just feel hopeless
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My last and almost life long theme/sub-theme largely subsided recently and my ocd felt like it wasn’t even an issue. Then I went on winter break from uni and being alone made my mind come up with a whole new topic to obsess over. TLDR on my fears, my advisor wouldn’t email me back for a while about signing up for classes so my mind started to worry “what if he doesn’t in time and you can’t enroll this semester and you lose this whole life you just built and all these new friends” So when that issue was resolved my mind found other scarier ways I could be uprooted from my current life and friends that I’ve grown so attached to. Then my mind remembered back when I was struggling with false memories and scrupulosity and I essentially made a post on a forum 2 and a half years ago saying I did something or was convinced I did something that I never actually did. Now I’ve been spiraling about someone finding it reporting me and I either get seen as a horrible person or arrested or something over something I never actually did but “admitted” to out of fear of going to hell. My mind won’t let it go and keeps finding new reasons for it to be “valid” “logical” or even inevitable. I feel like it’s just hanging over my head and I can never rest easy. Especially when I try to focus on my daily tasks or plan for the future I get this horrible flair up of “why plan for the future when this could come back in that future and you get uprooted from all of it” my mind won’t rest without certainty being uprooted won’t happen but certainty doesn’t exist, at least not with ocd. This sucks and I miss being care free.
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