Does anyone especially with harm ocd feel like they are their thoughts and want to do these things? Like no matter how hard I try and even during my therapy session I get the constant, “what if this isn’t OCD?”, “you like these thoughts”, “your a bad person”, “your going to act on these thoughts.” It gotten to the point where it feels like I’m actually this person and that I have changed into an evil person and it’s so scary cause it’s gotten to the point where it feels like I’m never going to get my life back and that’s saddening. I’ve never had a violent history never hurt anyone or anything but I don’t know why it feels like I am.

Struggling with the same thing right now

Yes!! I had that during my therapy session today too. I’m just picturing it like OCD is really fighting to stay in my brain, it’s trying to get in the way of therapy 😂 I think we need to do our best to take a step back and notice the thoughts when they come, and label it as OCD. Easier said than done, I know. Because our emotions are tied in, I think.

I feel like you questioning your thoughts just proves you more than likely don’t want to do them! Idk if you are into meditating or not but that has helped me clear my mind a lot of the time. And just remembering that if those thoughts disturb me then they are not my TRUE intention ya know? It’s really hard but watching a lot of YouTube videos about it and how to reprogram the subconscious mind and staying up with good habits does help! Lmk if u do any of this🥺I wish everyone the best. Ocd sucks ass fr

Yes...Mine also felt like I had to do it to get it out of my system

I just want to get better get my life back cause even that feels so foreign who I was because ocd is making me feel like this isn’t ocd and that I’m not this horrible person and that no matter how many therapist I see I won’t get better .

Just realize this is a setback ...I had a erp session today and it was so so hard. I had to read my biggest fear outloud and I wonder if I will ever get better too. It can feel like you don't know who you are anymore, so out of touch. I don't know if it helps to know that you aren't alone and we are all trying to fight this.

Thank you. I’ve also been struggling to do erp because of the fear and feeling that I like these thoughts and exposures. OCD really tries to do anything to stop me from recovering .

Yep I get it. My hardest exposure of course deals with a loved one and reading it out loud I fear that it will manifest or Im giving it attention. It sucks

All those extra thoughts and what ifs are OCD. I read on this app once that when someone gets what ifs they say, what if I shut the fuck up. That helps me lol

I literally wanted to check myself into a psych ward because I did not feel safe with myself and I was convinced I was a danger to others.

When my OCD got really bad I felt exactly the same...I felt like I had to do something and was crying to my husband that he needed to drive me to the hospital and check me in because I was so scared of myself