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Yes...Mine also felt like I had to do it to get it out of my system
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- 3y
I just want to get better get my life back cause even that feels so foreign who I was because ocd is making me feel like this isn’t ocd and that I’m not this horrible person and that no matter how many therapist I see I won’t get better .
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Just realize this is a setback ...I had a erp session today and it was so so hard. I had to read my biggest fear outloud and I wonder if I will ever get better too. It can feel like you don't know who you are anymore, so out of touch. I don't know if it helps to know that you aren't alone and we are all trying to fight this.
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Thank you. I’ve also been struggling to do erp because of the fear and feeling that I like these thoughts and exposures. OCD really tries to do anything to stop me from recovering .
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I literally wanted to check myself into a psych ward because I did not feel safe with myself and I was convinced I was a danger to others.
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I feel like you questioning your thoughts just proves you more than likely don’t want to do them! Idk if you are into meditating or not but that has helped me clear my mind a lot of the time. And just remembering that if those thoughts disturb me then they are not my TRUE intention ya know? It’s really hard but watching a lot of YouTube videos about it and how to reprogram the subconscious mind and staying up with good habits does help! Lmk if u do any of this🥺I wish everyone the best. Ocd sucks ass fr
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All those extra thoughts and what ifs are OCD. I read on this app once that when someone gets what ifs they say, what if I shut the fuck up. That helps me lol
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 3y
Hi there! Thank you so much for your vulnerability to share on here. I have definitely experienced this with POCD. I absolutely know how you're feeling; please know you're not alone. OCD is the doubting disorder and it makes you question anything and everything. As difficult as it may seem, try challenging your OCD. Tell it, "Just because I thought that wild thought, does not mean that is who I am!" I can promise you that with ERP, you will be able to get your life back. Do not give up. I know that OCD is strong, but you are stronger!
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Struggling with the same thing right now
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Yes!! I had that during my therapy session today too. I’m just picturing it like OCD is really fighting to stay in my brain, it’s trying to get in the way of therapy 😂 I think we need to do our best to take a step back and notice the thoughts when they come, and label it as OCD. Easier said than done, I know. Because our emotions are tied in, I think.
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Yep I get it. My hardest exposure of course deals with a loved one and reading it out loud I fear that it will manifest or Im giving it attention. It sucks
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When my OCD got really bad I felt exactly the same...I felt like I had to do something and was crying to my husband that he needed to drive me to the hospital and check me in because I was so scared of myself
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- 25w
This might be asking for reassurance but I’m at a point I’m not sure if this is ocd and who better to ask than you guys. Also want to mention I have been to a psychologist who diagnosed me with ocd and I’ve tried to seek therapy through NOCD but had a bad experience so I’m just looking for an opinion I’ll take with a grain of salt. I’ve been through bouts of pocd that I got through but now it’s morphed into something that feels so different. It’s like harm ocd and pocd together and it revolves around my daughter. Before this happened I was a loving mother who valued my kid more than anything. Now this is happening and it feels so sinister. I’m getting urges to do something bad and I get these feelings like I want to do that and it’s like my brain gets foggy and my values slip away and I feel like I could do it. But then I get a moment of clarity and I’m like wait a minute I’ve never hurt anyone in my life nor have I ever thought about it and this is my child what is happening. But then I get that foggy brain again and it’s like I can’t see her as my child. I try to sit with it and it’s like I get this adrenaline rush and feel like I have to do it. But I know I don’t want to do that, but then it’s like trying to make me want to want to. I’m not sure if I’m just lacking insight and clarity because I’m overwhelmed with the groinals, urges, thoughts and feelings but I just keep obsessing over the fact that death is my only way out. I don’t understand what happened to me. It feels like this demonic oppression and I don’t know how to get through this one or if this is still something I can get through because it might not be ocd. I try to go with the thoughts and feelings and say yeah maybe, maybe not, or yeah I’m going to do that but it seems to fuel the feelings. I feel like I’m teetering between the person I was and this evil awful person who has no regard for others. I don’t want to be around my daughter and I’m just angry all the time. The fear and anxiety used to be something I relied on and I feel none of that now. I used to be able to say “well no matter what I feel or think I can control my actions” and now it feels like I cannot control my actions but I’ve never hurt anyone before. Someone please give it to me straight and tell me if you think this might not be ocd.
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 18w
Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.
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harm ocd is the bane of my existence. people always tell me that if you have anxiety over a thought, that’s ocd. and these intrusive thoughts cause me IMMENSE anxiety. i’m constantly looking for reasons why i’m not what these thoughts tell me i am. but WHY DOES IT FEEL SO REAL?? it’s like i can’t reassure myself that this isn’t me and i don’t want to do it, but i also look for reasons why it’s not me. my brain is constantly telling me “if you don’t act on this, you’ll never feel free”. WHAT EVEN IS THAT?? and why does it feel real?? anytime i think about getting therapy, i constantly think that it’s not going to help me positively but help me realize i am this person. i just wish someone with harm ocd could get into my brain, understand me, and tell me everything will be okay. i wish someone in recovery could tell me that they’ve been where i am, felt the same feelings, thought the same thoughts, and got through it when they thought they wouldn’t. i feel like i’m drowning in it. another thing is i think about how my mom knows a surface level understanding to this form of my ocd, but if she knew it all, i’m scared she’d never look at me the same. i’m scared she’d be scared of me and think i need psychiatric help. IM TERRIFIED.
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