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- 3y ago
I would do the same thing and say I should just kill myself woth these pills, I even had a dream about it the other day and in my dream I took the pills and immediatly i started to try and throw them up bc i regretted it. This dream meant a lot too me bc it showed me tht death is the only permanent thing in life and if I do tht I can never take back tht decision
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- 3y ago
I have this - there have been a few suicides in the past few months that have really really affected me. I’m always extremely scared that because I deal with mental health issues, that I’m going to do the same thing - it’s an association. Correlation doesn’t mean causation though, and I remind myself that on the flip side, there are tons of people dealing with mental health issues/OCD that are doing super well with support and therapy - in your case, there are lots of people who medication has helped! It’s easy to always focus on the worst case scenario - it’s taken about half me ignoring these thoughts and just throwing them away, and half changing my perspective around. You’re not alone!
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- 3y ago
I love your comment. It’s so true, especially with OCD I know we all compare ourselves to others who actually have done the things we fear. In addition to what you said, we don’t ever know the full story of someone’s life and can’t make assumptions as to why they would take their own life (or hurt others, etc.). And we don’t have to know!
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- 3y ago
Haven’t experienced this exactly but it seems like you know that this association isn’t true. I actually struggle with associating/implying intrusive thoughts to my religion. Obviously I don’t mean these thoughts but I still struggle with them. If you know that you don’t mean these thoughts, that is what matters. I hope you keep pushing through and you get stronger with every day!
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- 3y ago
Thank you! It feels like one of those things I’ve seen friends go through where they aren’t in a great headspace but proceed to take some sort of recreational drug anyway, and then have a bad trip. I’m worried that if I were to start meds feeling apprehensive, my “bad trip” would be suicide. Ugh it sounds so ridiculous I hate it but just can’t quite shake it off yet.
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- 3y ago
@acnh.fanatic Yeah it is hard. I haven’t experienced that like I said but I’m sure it is difficult.
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Appreciate the support ❤️
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- 3y ago
I’m so sorry for what you went through. My long-term partner went through a period of time where he felt suicidal, and on a couple occasions exclaimed, “I want to kill myself!” This still rings in my head and is a part of my intrusive thoughts. It was a very difficult and traumatic time for me, and while he didn’t try to kill himself and is doing much better now, it’s still a traumatic memory for me that strongly contributes to my suicidal ocd and intrusive thoughts.
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