I don’t think I will ever recover. The only way this will end is if I just accept that I’m a lesbian. Im crying in the bathroom. I can’t do this.

Same here. My mind is telling me to just accept it but I cannot live with myself if it is true that I am actually a lesbian. I feel so ashamed and every time I say in my head that it would be okay if I was, I freak out even more because I do not want that to be who I am. I am so scared that this is how I was born and I’ll never be able to change it.