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- 6y
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ahh i feel the same way! i had to tip toe around explaininh my intrusive thoughts to different therapists because first off, if they misdiagnosed me and said it to me i’d freak out (my worst nightmare would kind of become true) and i really wanted them to know that in NO WAY did i want to do what the thoughts were about, but they came in a really aggressive way, and much to an extent where to a therapist it couldve sounded like i heard voices. but luckily my therapist knows a lot about ocd and other disorders too, and she told me they’re called (in danish at least) “aggressive intrusive thoughts” which come in, you guessed it, a more aggressive form. like for example in the “do it” form. mainly those thoughts only end up looking like that because you fear that you’ll end up thinking of wanting to act on the images or impulses, and so your brain kinda goes “is this the way the horrible thought would be like?” and then it enters and usually stays around if youre frightened of it.
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- 6y
I have this same fear as well. Anything that you read or hear about it will stick in you mind. I constantly ask myself am I going to act out these thoughts and fight with my inner voice. It’s normal. OCD is a pain in the ass.i have no desire to harm myself or anyone either but my mind constantly says “do it” as well. You never will. The OCD will just torment you. You are going to be ok. Googling stuff about schizophrenia and psychosis has me the most anxious I’ve ever been but that’s just it, it’s only anxiety.
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- 6y
I just got over a bad schizophrenic spike. It really scared me because I would read something online about it and almost tried convincing myself that I was psychotic or schizophrenic. I have definitely had intrusive thoughts that made me feel like it was a voice but I then realized that it was just OCD taking it on because I didn’t want to think it. It’s so frustrating but as soon as you get the anxiety to calm down you realize that it’s just that, anxiety. I’m not trying to reassure you because that’s probably the worst thing you can do because it takes the anxiety away for a little but then it’ll come back but if you were truly psychotic or schizophrenic you probably wouldn’t be scared or worried about it. You would just believe full heartily that there was a voice telling you to do things. Stay strong?
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- 6y
Yes I just read up on it and now I feel super anxious
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- 6y
Yes I just read up on it and now I feel super anxious Even though i have never heard a voice in my head I have told myself that I am not a pedofile (I am suffering with pocd)
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- 25w
This might be asking for reassurance but I’m at a point I’m not sure if this is ocd and who better to ask than you guys. Also want to mention I have been to a psychologist who diagnosed me with ocd and I’ve tried to seek therapy through NOCD but had a bad experience so I’m just looking for an opinion I’ll take with a grain of salt. I’ve been through bouts of pocd that I got through but now it’s morphed into something that feels so different. It’s like harm ocd and pocd together and it revolves around my daughter. Before this happened I was a loving mother who valued my kid more than anything. Now this is happening and it feels so sinister. I’m getting urges to do something bad and I get these feelings like I want to do that and it’s like my brain gets foggy and my values slip away and I feel like I could do it. But then I get a moment of clarity and I’m like wait a minute I’ve never hurt anyone in my life nor have I ever thought about it and this is my child what is happening. But then I get that foggy brain again and it’s like I can’t see her as my child. I try to sit with it and it’s like I get this adrenaline rush and feel like I have to do it. But I know I don’t want to do that, but then it’s like trying to make me want to want to. I’m not sure if I’m just lacking insight and clarity because I’m overwhelmed with the groinals, urges, thoughts and feelings but I just keep obsessing over the fact that death is my only way out. I don’t understand what happened to me. It feels like this demonic oppression and I don’t know how to get through this one or if this is still something I can get through because it might not be ocd. I try to go with the thoughts and feelings and say yeah maybe, maybe not, or yeah I’m going to do that but it seems to fuel the feelings. I feel like I’m teetering between the person I was and this evil awful person who has no regard for others. I don’t want to be around my daughter and I’m just angry all the time. The fear and anxiety used to be something I relied on and I feel none of that now. I used to be able to say “well no matter what I feel or think I can control my actions” and now it feels like I cannot control my actions but I’ve never hurt anyone before. Someone please give it to me straight and tell me if you think this might not be ocd.
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- 24w
This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.
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- 20w
I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅
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