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- laurlpn
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- 5y ago
ahh i feel the same way! i had to tip toe around explaininh my intrusive thoughts to different therapists because first off, if they misdiagnosed me and said it to me i’d freak out (my worst nightmare would kind of become true) and i really wanted them to know that in NO WAY did i want to do what the thoughts were about, but they came in a really aggressive way, and much to an extent where to a therapist it couldve sounded like i heard voices. but luckily my therapist knows a lot about ocd and other disorders too, and she told me they’re called (in danish at least) “aggressive intrusive thoughts” which come in, you guessed it, a more aggressive form. like for example in the “do it” form. mainly those thoughts only end up looking like that because you fear that you’ll end up thinking of wanting to act on the images or impulses, and so your brain kinda goes “is this the way the horrible thought would be like?” and then it enters and usually stays around if youre frightened of it.
I have this same fear as well. Anything that you read or hear about it will stick in you mind. I constantly ask myself am I going to act out these thoughts and fight with my inner voice. It’s normal. OCD is a pain in the ass.i have no desire to harm myself or anyone either but my mind constantly says “do it” as well. You never will. The OCD will just torment you. You are going to be ok. Googling stuff about schizophrenia and psychosis has me the most anxious I’ve ever been but that’s just it, it’s only anxiety.
I just got over a bad schizophrenic spike. It really scared me because I would read something online about it and almost tried convincing myself that I was psychotic or schizophrenic. I have definitely had intrusive thoughts that made me feel like it was a voice but I then realized that it was just OCD taking it on because I didn’t want to think it. It’s so frustrating but as soon as you get the anxiety to calm down you realize that it’s just that, anxiety. I’m not trying to reassure you because that’s probably the worst thing you can do because it takes the anxiety away for a little but then it’ll come back but if you were truly psychotic or schizophrenic you probably wouldn’t be scared or worried about it. You would just believe full heartily that there was a voice telling you to do things. Stay strong?
Yes I just read up on it and now I feel super anxious
Yes I just read up on it and now I feel super anxious Even though i have never heard a voice in my head I have told myself that I am not a pedofile (I am suffering with pocd)
Anybody struggle with thinking you have schizophrenia or are slowly developing it? Mine just kinda popped up out of the blue today. Idk why I have a sudden feeling that I might hear or see something that nobody else will hear or see. I just feel like I’m stuck in my own head and I might act out of impulse. It’s making me feel anxious, uncomfortable, and worried that something might be wrong with me. I even feel like covering my ears so I can calm myself down with some piece and quiet. Please tell me someone else knows what I’m talking about
I have had what I think is Harm OCD since the age of 10. My mom didn’t understand when I told her “I feel like I might kill someone” which ultimately led to me suffering in silence until the age of 20 where I was just diagnosed with GAD. Since being on Zoloft for over 10 years I did relatively well. I would have small flair ups, but was able to pull myself out of it. Now, since having my second child, I have completely relapse and I struggle almost daily. I was weaned off of Zoloft and put on Lexapro. Which seemed to work and now I’m back to square one. TL;DR My thought is that I would choke my children. It sometimes almost feels like and urge (my hands feel weird). This is the last think I ever want to do and it causes me distress to the point of panic. TW: Sucide. Sometimes I think it’s better if I’m just not here because I wouldn’t be a danger to my children. I often think about movies like shutter island and think I am like that mother. Or real some real like mother that drown her children that I saw on the news when I was a kid. It has also turned into Psychosis OCD at times where I am so afraid I am developing psychosis and that I would hurt my kids from that. Which comes with its whole own set of “rules” and fears. I’m just trying to find some confirmation that this is actually ocd or if I have something else. I’m just struggling. Thanks for reading.
i see so many stories of mothers going through postpartum psychosis and then harming their children and it scares me so bad to the point idk if i want to have kids. what if that happens to me when/if i have children? anyone else have this fear :(
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