strong urge to confess
so yesterday i was having a good day. i was hanging out with my friend so i was tending to ignore my intrusive thoughts when they showed up. i was doing compulsions but they weren't as elaborate as usual. i thought that would be enough but last night i kept waking up from my dreams convinced i had done something bad or it was about my intrusive thoughts. however i was also too tired to worry about it so i would try to reassure myself and fall back asleep. it's early in the morning now and i'm having a panic attack because i'm scared i've become a p. this morning my sister was watching tiktok and their was a video about a pedophile and i remember waking up right when the word was said in the video so know i feel more grossed out and scared. my intrusive thoughts are always bad on the weekends. i'm scared i'm slowly becoming one and idk what to do to calm myself.