anyone have any tips for forgiving yourself for your intrusive thoughts? i feel like i’m forever going to feel bad for and punish myself for mine. also if anyone is religious (i’m christian), do u ever fear god won’t forgive you for your intrusive thoughts?
Yes, i felt like that for the longest. Like he was super upset at me. But he knows our true intentions and God knows our heart like no other.
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my trouble comes when i start thinking “oh what if my intrusive thought wasn’t actually an intrusive thought and was my true intention”
@kaylaisstruggling For sure. Then you over analyze it and stress yourself out.
@kaylaisstruggling but the thought i’m most wanting forgiveness for was followed by the biggest anxiety attack of my life (high heart rate, crying, nausea) and me literally telling my mom i wanted to go to the mental hospital so that should be reason enough for me to know it was an intrusive thought. it still tries to trick me that it wasn’t. logic can’t fight this beast.
@kaylaisstruggling I’m sorry😕 I totally get it. It’s exhausting because it feels like your mind is constantly at war with itself.
God knows your heart and knows your struggle. He knows that the intrusive thoughts you have are not really you and that they are from your OCD. If you still feel bad just ask for forgiveness and he will forgive you. It’s what he promises. Just keep praying and look to scripture for help❤️ I will be praying for you as well!
Thank you so much. Are there any scriptures that have helped you?
@kaylaisstruggling I was actually looking them up just now lol Also: Matthew 6:33-34 2 Timothy 1:7
Philippians 4:6-7 Psalm 65:3
Thank you so much. I’ll read them before going to sleep. I appreciate it a lot.
@kaylaisstruggling Of course!
I woke up this morning to my heart racing and my stomach in knots with no particular thought, other than that i was a horrible person for the past ocd thought that scared me so much. i feel like i can’t shake off this guilt. it makes me feel like i don’t deserve to live and i don’t deserve the support of my wonderful family. afraid this is going to trigger depression, which i have also had before.
I am sorry. I have had that happen when you wake up stressed out and nothing has even happened yet. Or the OCD attacks you before you are fully awake. I think the guilt you feel shows that you are truly a good person. Are you on meds for this or have you tried therapy?
@djeffries I’m in the middle of a med switch. I was diagnosed when I was 8 with ocd, started zoloft at 10, and now at 19 recently tried to change bc i thought the zoloft was losing its effectiveness. now after being on prozac for a couple weeks instead, im switching back to zoloft bc i think it was more effective than i orginally thought. i mean it kept me ocd free for almost a decade. so im eager to get back to it. but i also just started erp yesterday. im currently fighting rlly hard against guilt. im feeling guilty bc i had a scary ocd thought that phrased itself different than most of my ocd thoughts. it’s like it was trying to convince me i wanted something instead of just saying “what if u wanted this”. it also combined two obsessions. i was thinking about how my family should hate me for my scary obsessions and that they don’t. so then my scary obsession came back in convincing me it was true bc it would make my parents hate me if it was true. im not sure if im making any sense, but basically two obsessions were feeding off eachother. and that’s what i feel like i can’t forgive myself for bc it was so different than usual. i just need to understand that ocd can change its tactics and can basically say anything unfortunately! it’s been sending me into serious anxiety attacks and making me question my worth and even makes me think i should die in hell. ). basically ocd is being a bitch to me rn.
Hi Everyone! I hope whoever is reading this is having a good day so far :) So for years now I’ve had very bad intrusive thoughts about things that I have done or embarrassing things that I’ve said or have happened and it’s mortifying and debilitating on a daily basis. Specifically these thoughts are mainly things that have occurred from 2018-2020 and some are more simple just as a stupid joke I made or being way too loud on calls while my family was trying to sleep and others being way more complex such as past relationships and how I’ve hurt some of the people I care the most about and when I have acted on intrusive thoughts and these thoughts will appear with no triggers at all I’ll just wake up and already have something I did just nagging me. I don’t want to live like this anymore and I’ve tried working through it with self compassion but sometimes the things I said or did back then it’s very hard to forgive myself for and I’ll reminisce on it for hours on hours, gaslight myself into believing that’s not how it happened and try to change the memory itself, or just suppress it entirely. I know those habits aren’t healthy and truly I want to get better but I don’t know how to overcome some of these thoughts. I have talked to my fiancé about this a few times and even today we talked about it and he fully supports me and is helping me work through it. I might also contact my sister too, I don’t talk to her overly too much but ever since I was little she’s thought I’ve had ocd and was one of the people who made me consider that I might have it (I’m still undiagnosed but I’ll try to when I have the money and time) and I know she could maybe provide some insight. Another thing that is troublesome about the situation is my other family members specifically my mom aren’t the most helpful and can trigger thoughts. To put it in perspective on how her thought process is and some background info she is an ER nurse and has been for 30 years due to this she believes she knows mainly everything there is about mental health and she gets extremely upset when I don’t take her advice or set boundaries. She’ll force me to talk to her about my problems and when I don’t want to she’ll pin me in a corner where I’m forced to and last summer I had a really bad episode and was really overstimulated and I just finished taking a shower and due to the water on me, my hair being wet (my hair is naturally curly and it takes forever to dry and it’s very draining taking care of even with a keratin treatment) and all the intrusive thoughts I was having and she forced me to talk to her and I did open up for the first time about my thoughts and brought up how sometimes I have thoughts of hurting my animals and it makes me physically sick. Her response to this was threatening to call the cops on me saying it was a behavioral thing and I was doing it for attention. I have never hurt any of my animals but later that day my cat came into my room and a few minutes later she comes up just gives me the death stare and after a few seconds just asks me “are you going to go kill snickers?” In the most condescending tone and she’s always like this daily where she’ll force advice onto me or get upset and yell and then reinforce thoughts I’m having. I just want to know first how to stop the thoughts from so frequently and how to heal in an environmental where it keeps reopening wounds despite trying to place boundaries? I’m sorry this is really long I usually do go really in detail about things and it’s just how I’ve always been. If anyone has any questions feel free to ask and I’ll answer them to the best of my ability. I really appreciate the time you took to read this and thank you for your help! 🥰
I’ve been struggling with religious OCD for the past month or so (blasphemous intrusive thoughts, fear of going to hell, etc). I’m a Christian. I’ve been in ERP and I’m learning to let the thoughts just be which is hard, but I’m struggling with the overwhelming feelings of guilt about having the intrusive thoughts. I know the thoughts aren’t from me and don’t reflect my true self, but sometimes if feels like I’m bringing the thoughts on if that makes sense. Does anyone have any advice on overcoming the guilt? OCD is also telling me I’m never going to get over this and my relationship with God will never be the same. I just want to be able to praise God without all of this and it’s making me incredibly sad and lonely. Any words of encouragement are appreciated.
I am a christian guy who grew up in a christian community and family. For as long as i remember, ive had horrible thoughts about all kinds of things that i dont know where to begin. Due to my extreme thoughts, i feel as if i am unworthy of practicing my religioin, such as praying, reading, meditating, etc. I feel ashamed when i go to church, as if i dont belong there because i feel like i am secretely evil, and that God knows i am evil and i am committing blasphemy by going there, and refusing to "repent", from my thoughts. But then again, my thoughts are just thoughts, sure. So whats the problem? - The problem is that in my faith, i have been taught that we must control our thoughts, so they do not get power over us to make us commit sin. Such as "If you think lustfully about a woman, you have already committed adultery with her in your heart". This verse has killed my self esteem, due to the constant unwanted sexual and disturbing thoughts. It makes me feel like a monster, who secretely just wants to abuse and be horrible to people, even though i know very well i do not want this. Sometimes i think horrible things about the people i love very much, such as my girlfriend. It feels so wrong and evil, even though i know it isnt my true will.
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