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It’s just terrible man, I’m scared
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I am so sorry that you are dealing with this guilt and worry and anguish. That SUCKS. Just know that thoughts CANNOT do any external harm, only actions can. And I don't know if this is part of your situation at all, forgive me if you are not struggling with this, but do you happen to feel like you absolutely MUST confess your thoughts to someone? IF you are feeling that, you may have a confession compulsion (not to be confused with just sharing your struggles, of course!!) that may be escalating your intrusive thoughts and anxiety. Not at all to diagnose you of course, just a suggestion!
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Well I wish that I could tell my mom or my most closest friends but I can’t even do that without sounding weird :(
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@kathernyr And I do know two other girls that have the same thing I do but I’m scared to tell them my exact thought even if they have it 😭😭
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have you tried talking with an ocd specialist yet? & I understand you OCD themes are scary but that’s all they are just themes :)
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No.. I’m too scared to open up to a specialist as I feel like they’ll say I don’t have ocd and that it’s something else..
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@kathernyr that’s what I felt like too! but that was the ocd talkin it’s walk, I know the decision itself is scary but then you will be missing out on resources to help you!If it’s easier you can write little notes on paper and take it with you so it may be easier to deliver the message :) I’m sending you so much strength and love your way<3
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Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared
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Ive dealt with pocd for a very long time now and it gets more real as time goes on. I was watching a movie and I’ve read the books so I knew there was a kiss scene coming up.The actors and their characters are children but I was basically looking forward to the scene. Then as they were kissing, it looked kind of weird and mechanical because again the actor was technically still a child. And I let myself indulge and enjoy it, of how someone young was doing something sexual and adult like. Idk I feel like a fuckikg creep but I don’t WANT this. There was nothing intrusive about this, it’s just something creepy that I’ve done. I keep ruminating about it but still. I don’t identify myself by this mistake but it still sucks. My mind then went to children that I know, one girl and one boy, and them separately doing sexual things for the first time and navigating that and it feels like I like it but I don’t. It’s not as real as the movie scene because the fact I enjoyed the scene WAS real but it’s still stressing me out.
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I have no idea anymore. I guess this all started with me worrying about whether I was gay, then whether I was a P, then worried about being just attracted to teenagers. After that I started freaking out about not feeling “grown up” enough. Like “I’m an adult wtf is wrong with me for seeing someone who is probably younger and thinking they’re physically attractive. Then I started overthinking not finding older adults (like 30 or 40) very attractive. Like ofc I’m probably not gonna find them attractive, they’re not anywhere close my age. Maybe the desires are half real. Maybe as a 21 yr old young adult I do find older teenagers (16+) somewhat physically attractive. I still think it’d be weird to date one. Maybe that’s the normal reaction I’m supposed to have. If not, please let me know. I just don’t wanna do anything illegal one day and I’m super scared I will. I can’t tell if the fear is my just being afraid of the law though, in which case I might actually just be a bad person. I hate that my brain is just rationalizing thoughts now. I feel like I can’t do the ERP thing of “just accept that the thoughts are there but don’t engage.” Like what? How can I just think a thought that might be so integral to my identity and just ignore it? If it’s all true and I don’t like people my age anymore then I have to know and plan around that, that could change my entire life. I’m rambling, my b.
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