Bro I keep getting groinals and checking out ljke looking at girls on social media and getting groinials and now I just had the most nastiest thought and I felt like I agreed with it :( it was so uncomfortable and I feel weird but I’m watching neon demon and I just figured out that the actress is playing a 16 years old girl but irl she’s not 16 and I noticed that I keep just looking at her butt and I even said “oh she doesn’t even have a butt” and I felt so weird after that, is it normal to have thoughts like this a bc I swear I feel like since I haven’t been haven’t that many thoughts I feel like these are not pocd thoughts :( and I feel no anxiety at all anymore and I even had a bad freak out where I was on like 1-7 day streak of not having thoughts and I had thought I became a p :(, then I think panicked myself back into them and the thoughts came back 😭 or the worries at least. Then I saw this boy on an edit from a movie and he looked really young then I keep thinking or saying he was cute but I felt like I was attracted to him or was and I feel like that’s why I said it, and he looked like pretty young yk so idkkk anymore I’m so worried and it’s been aching at me for awhile and I just had to confess bc I really feel weird and I feel like I’m becoming a p, and feeling like I’m so used to it and that it’s okay to have these thoughts and that I like thinking of this or idk it’s bc normal and I don’t like that like ughhh 😕 somethings wrong with me

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Date posted: 3y

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katr :,)

Date posted: 3y

It’s just terrible man, I’m scared

bunniesnchee...

Date posted: 3y

I am so sorry that you are dealing with this guilt and worry and anguish. That SUCKS. Just know that thoughts CANNOT do any external harm, only actions can. And I don't know if this is part of your situation at all, forgive me if you are not struggling with this, but do you happen to feel like you absolutely MUST confess your thoughts to someone? IF you are feeling that, you may have a confession compulsion (not to be confused with just sharing your struggles, of course!!) that may be escalating your intrusive thoughts and anxiety. Not at all to diagnose you of course, just a suggestion!

katr :,)

Date posted: 3y

Well I wish that I could tell my mom or my most closest friends but I can’t even do that without sounding weird :(

katr :,)

Date posted: 3y

@kathernyr And I do know two other girls that have the same thing I do but I’m scared to tell them my exact thought even if they have it 😭😭

mopy

Date posted: 3y

have you tried talking with an ocd specialist yet? & I understand you OCD themes are scary but that’s all they are just themes :)

katr :,)

Date posted: 3y

No.. I’m too scared to open up to a specialist as I feel like they’ll say I don’t have ocd and that it’s something else..

mopy

Date posted: 3y

@kathernyr that’s what I felt like too! but that was the ocd talkin it’s walk, I know the decision itself is scary but then you will be missing out on resources to help you!If it’s easier you can write little notes on paper and take it with you so it may be easier to deliver the message :) I’m sending you so much strength and love your way<3

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