JesusHealMe

Date posted: 3y

Curious

Are any of you on here true followers of Jesus? Like all of these thoughts, anxiety, and panic attacks are so blasphemous towards the Word of God. My favorite thing to do is study the Bible for 2-3 hours every morning, public speaking, creating motivational video content for others., and just doing my best to represent God kingdom in the best way possible. All of this makes me feel so unworthy sometimes, like a voice will intensely say I’m not worthy to do such things because of the disgusting things that I’ve been exposed to or instructive thoughts that have went through my head. My only mission when I wake up is to spread the gospel and impact many lives, I would never in a billion years fathom having to deal with something like this. It’s so depressing, I even hesitate going around my students that I mentor because I feel so unworthy and contaminated. This sometimes feel like a dream, like a foggy cloud. It’s hard to fathom that thoughts I 100% hate would stick like this. I know Jesus will heal me, I know he will, my diligence have never been tested like this EVER. And I have been through so much Trauma in my life. Nothing makes me feel as uncomfortable as this.

iloveYOU123

Date posted: 3y

Hi there, I'm new to this community and I'm not sure if what I'm about to share will be helpful or not, but I am a believer of Jesus as well. I grew up having scary intrusive thoughts and not until my 9 yr. old son begain experiencing his first OCD symptoms at the age of 7 did I realize that what I had experienced as a child was actaully OCD. I couldn't believe some of the thoughts I had--I felt ashamed, embarrassed and unworthy. After learning about OCD and reading, studying the word and spending time with Jesus through prayer and worship, have I come to accept that Jesus paid the ultimately price for all of us. We humans make mistakes--we all do or have; we've all had to ask for forgiveness in some form or another and be willing to receive forgiveness from others. Just know that you ARE worthy. I'm not trying to reassure you of anything- I'm only stating the truth. As a believer we know of the enemies tactics (check out the book Battlefield of the Mind by Joyce Meyer). The enemies brings fear, anxiety, doubt, and confusion. Knowing who you are in Christ is powerful. You are a Child of God. As a child, you have the power and the authority to resist the enemy--and he shall flee. Do not be afraid. Put on the armour of God--read the books of colassaions ans galatians that tell you who you are in Christ. Yes, OCD can be loud at times (many times). OCD can make you feel out of control, but just know you can take charge at any moment and talk back to it. Laugh at it--say, "yea, I know you want to trick me and doubt who I am, but I know who I am.....(list who you are in Christ). Focus on things that are of good report, pure, true, and encouraging. God has placed it in your heart to evanglize (KEEP AT IT!)...any doubt, depression, unwanted thoughts and images or anxiety just recoginze it for what it is and toss it out... Worthy is the lamb who was slain. If it weren't for Jesus we'd all be unworthy. You are not alone. God sent his word and healed! You're on the right track. To be part of such a supportive community as this, and to have such faith. You will run and soar like an eagle--Be still and at peace 🙏👍 Worship ☺️ - I like the song Victory by Elevation Worship and Jireh by Maverick City, and Too Good to Not Believe by Brandon Lake (I'm sure you'll enjoy them too 😊) Praise as though the victory as ALREADY been won. 🙌

JesusHealMe

Date posted: 3y

Yes, thank you. I’ve been dealing with it for 25 days now, I remember the exact moment it all started. As a follower it just feels like somethings you should absolutely be exempt from, like this shouldn’t be able to touch us. It’s messed with my clarity when trying to read and study, does this make it hard for you to attend church also? Like does church cause you to get triggered easily?

JesusHealMe

Date posted: 3y

I appreciate the feedback also! That’s all accurate and God breathed.

Matty A

Date posted: 3y

From my study of history, I learned that so many great evangelists dealt with feelings of guilt. OCD, of course, can make those feelings even more intense. Just know that every thought that tries to say you're unworthy is not from G-d. Rather, scripture says that His grace is enough, regardless of our flaws. Also, while healing does not always come right away, we can still rely on G-d's strength to overcome any struggle.

JesusHealMe

Date posted: 3y

Thank You!

iloveYOU123

Date posted: 3y

After understanding OCD, and about doubt and the lies that the enemy tries to tell us--it's quite liberating. Jesus told us that we would have trials and the enemy will do what he can to steal our joy. You must stand firm on your conviction on who Christ is and who you are in him. You will not be moved. No matter what thoughts, images or feelings come to mind--just take a deep breath and know that you are more than a conquere. We are not exempt but we have a different perspective--we have a different outlook. Our outlook and faith steers the way for victory which in turn returns praise to God Almighty. Without a test there would be no testimony 💗 I love going to church because it affirms that it's through Christ that gives me strength. Any opportunity to praise Jesus is like giving the enemy a punch!

JesusHealMe

Date posted: 3y

Thank you much! Very encouraging 🙌🏾. Jesus!

iloveYOU123

Date posted: 3y

Hi there, just checking in to see how you're doing?

JesusHealMe

Date posted: 3y

It was a tough night of rest as I had a very disturbing dream for the first time in years, it comes from the ocd the stress of this ocd but I don’t want to give it too much attention because that ultimately enhances it. It’s like my whole life of disturbing experiences is being recycled all at once, completely out of no where. These voices, thoughts, and images feel so real sometimes. I’m just trying to avoid all compulsions so I can sit with this insane amount of discomfort. I had a few good days then the last 2 days felt like torture. I’ve been clinging to Jesus, one day he will make me fully pure again!

JesusHealMe

Date posted: 3y

I thank you for checking up on me. I’m just ready to get on with my life and get previous drive and enthusiasm back before all of this started. How are you?

iloveYOU123

Date posted: 3y

@Anonymous Facing the giant is the hardest part--and I can tell you from experience that it WILL get better. You'll be able to discern the thought for a thought, an image for just an image, a feeling for just a feeling. I know it may feel yucky at times but you got this! The more you're able to just deal with the discomfort the easier it gets (I know it's very hard at moments but it's like staring the giant in the face and saying "I am not afraid of you." Just breathe, and the OCD WILL shrink...even laugh....Laughter is such good medicine ☺️ I believe in the healing power of Jesus as well 💗

iloveYOU123

Date posted: 3y

@Anonymous ....I understand what you mean....you're on the right track! I'm rooting for you!! 💗

JesusHealMe

Date posted: 3y

@iloveYOU123 Thank you, I will stay up to date with you overtime. I need more followers of Christ that deal with this! It definitely is the biggest giant but nothing that Jesus can’t fix. So much encouragement ☝🏾 .

Krome_da

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 23w

Pretty Tough Morning

So I’m not sure how many/if any of you are Christians, but I’m assuming this can still make sense to some of you. This morning has been rough. I’m constantly thinking, “am I saved? Have I never been saved and I’m tricking myself into thinking I am? When I’m listening to Christian music am I doing for the right reasons? Is it too late for me?”. Things I know the truthful answers to but yet I still think these thoughts. I don’t understand why. Why do I constantly think about these “what if”’s? My heart always feels so heavy and I feel as if I need to talk to God right then and there to make it stop and go away. But then am I talking to the Lord for the wrong reasons? And the cycle repeats. Thankfully, day one of my therapy is tonight and I’m hoping to find at least a little clarity on this stuff. I’ve had OCD for 7 years and I don’t even know how it works. Any advice?

Jacklyngrant

Date posted: 14w

questioning why God would allow this

Hi friends. I recently had a relapse with OCD and I haven’t felt that real intense pain/fear/panic since I was first diagnosed 3 years ago. It was awful. I’ve been on medication and going to therapy for some time, and I am happy to report I have grown a lot. Long story short, it’s just become a burden for me recently trying to understand why this had to happen to me (and all of you). When I first started following Jesus, it was such a spiritual high. I had so much peace and joy, and I think within that first year with Him I became obsessed with the Bible and learning as much as I could. I think it was a sweet time, but suddenly a switch flipped. I became concerned that all my head knowledge, though I took to heart, became all I cared about. Then all the intrusive thoughts started, and you know the rest. I was relieved when I got my diagnosis, to know that scrupulosity is even a thing. But today, I sit and realize my OCD has taken on other forms (existential/fear of going insane) and then of course I started asking God “why me?”. And then… of course.. I feel bad for asking that. And then it triggered that same old feeling that I’m not in right standing with God. It’s so meta I can’t take it. Does anyone wonder why this had to be? I know the typical answers “we live in a broken world” and “God will use this for His glory” but is anyone just able to sit in that frustration, and work it out? I want to keep fighting, try understanding, like there’s this itch in me that I need to “figure out” something. But I know God isn’t the voice that’s speaking that to me. But gosh, it’s so brutal and hard. I believe God is carrying me through this. 2 Corinthians 12 has been a blessing for this. I just feel so weak. I get upset this is happening, start doubting God, and then feel guilty. It’s a stupid cycle and I see it. I have a very intellectual mind, and I find that most people with this kind of OCD share this trait. But it’s like, the logic doesn’t help. I just want God to sit in my bedroom and tell me it’s real, my faith is intact, and to keep trusting. I don’t know why He won’t do that for me, and I feel guilty for even feeling that way. Anyways, I don’t know what I’m seeking here, but for anyone feeling this way, know you’re not alone. I deeply love you all, even though we are all strangers. 1 Peter 5:9… right?

jesus.is.fre...

Date posted: 7w

Religious OCD Christian

Please help anyone else here with Religious ocd and is a Christian? My brain is going hay-wire and want to know I'm not alone... what do your thoughts say and how do you overcome compulsions? Im going through a rough moment and feel sick with anxiety and stiff. I want to obey God but my thoughts won't stop. I surrender to the Lord and then I have peace with the compulsions and they go away but the thoughts are the scary part please - is this spiritual or is it mental? Or is it both? Would love to hear a Christians opinion on this... because my thoughts latch on and won't dissappear but I know that the Bible commands us to take control of our thoughts and to renew our minds...yet God has grace for this and mercy for our every need... I know God is in control (completely) and my mind creates a lot of the issues for me without any spiritual stuff (it's a very powerful thing) but it's still scary. Lord help me, I surrender myself to you Jesus, counsel my soul and help me.

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Share your thoughts so the Community can respond

Curious

Related posts

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Be a part of the largest OCD Community