Any success stories from people who recovered from suicidality?

I used to be hopelessly over encumbered by POCD thoughts at 16 and was working up to ending it all because I had no idea what was going on and didn’t see a future with how I was thinking. I’m 21 now and since then I’ve explored many different areas of life. I’ve been in a couple relationships that gave me great insight to myself and what I want, picked up guitar and starting writing music, climbed out of my introvert shell and became way more extroverted, made connections through school and work, currently have my own DJ equipment with side gigs for extra money (it’s great), and I’m in school focusing a lot better than I did when I was 16. Since then I’ve had a couple more OCD outbursts which were Pure O (haven’t had external OCD since childhood) but each time I’ve learned to give less and less of a shit, which is awesome. Right now I’m still deciding for the long run what I want to do, but I’ve developed a great interest in people and the brain since I’ve researched endlessly about why we’re like this. Im not saying my life is great, but when I was in the hole all I could think about was how suicide can potentially be the answer. I started doing hard shit and thought “if I don’t want to do this anymore I know I have the willpower to just kill myself” which actually helped despite how morbid saying that to myself was. After accomplishing a few things I saw the light again and slowly lifted myself up. Apart from that I’ve been addicted to smoking weed purely to get out of my head, I didn’t even like smoking that much I just did it over and over to help the thoughts. I kicked that and now I’m back in the gym and becoming more aware of my surroundings. Also, I’m currently in a clinical study for OCD and therapy. It’s taken me many many years to get the courage to get the proper help. If there’s anything I can say, it’s to go against your brain and find a therapist, a good one too. Trial and error until you hit the right one. If like me you probably don’t want to do it, but I swear on everything if you get the right help you’ll never look back on these moments you’re experiencing right now. Take care friend and good luck.

Yes, I’m 52 and have lived a full and meaningful life despite external OCD as child (undiagnosed) and then having been hospitalized myself several times in my twenties for incapacitating depression (pure OCD was the primary driver of the depression but as well, not diagnosed at the time) these periods had me utterly convinced there was no way I could function in this world without every second being torture and failure, suicide seemed inevitable and I feared and fought it with all my mite. My recovery journey (pardon the cliche) is way too long to share here but know this...you can get on a path to make these compelling suicide ruminations irrelevant. I think ACT and ERP are powerful relearning tools. There is hope beyond hopelessness.

Rick and Throcky a million thanks for sharing your stories. I greatly appreciate it. For a long time I had a mindset that my brain and what it does is in my control (pure ocd) and this led to what I call a disaster that lasted for 5 months. 5 months of extreme annoyance . I'm learning to let go of that mindset and leave my brain alone. It's funny for me that for this long I was thinking that an absolute impossible thing was possible! at times I would be extremely tormented because of this mindset but I would somehow convince myself that It's fine to be this way.

Yes! That’s very important I’m proud you’ve figured out that it just isn’t in your control. Since it’s a biological issue, no form of logic is going to cure it instantly. I’ve rejected 7 medications but finally decided to try one last one out. I’m on celeXA 20mg rn and I’m not going to credit much to it but it does give me a more hopeful mindset since this issue isn’t depression or anxiety alone. It’s a whole different monster that coincides the two previous. I can’t wait until you see how powerful and energetic your mind can be once you’re on the right path. It’s truly beautiful and I know you’ll get there.

I attempted it again a month back but have gotten myself back into work, taking it very slowly though

In terms of what ?

in terms of the depression that led to it