Does anyone else think they have messed up their brain to the point of no return after onset of ocd symptoms? I was in constant battle with my brain for 5 months since I had a very bad habit of giving too much attention to my thoughts. A couple of months have passed since I left my brain alone but I still have brain fog as well as depersonalization/derealization. it sucks :(. I would love to hear from you.

ok. i’m sorry i can’t put a trigger warning on a reply. i am a female. i started smoking 2 packs of cigarettes a day in high school bc my parents let me smoke in my bedroom. i was anorexic in 2004 when i was hit by a car as a pedestrian. i flew in the air, flipped upside down, smacked my head on the windshield, flew off the car, and fractured my tailbone on the street. i did not fracture my skull. i received no treatment or counseling for my concussion at the hospital and my tailbone wasn’t imaged. i didnt find out until a few weeks later when i told my gp doctor about my uncontrollable weeping that i probably had a concussion. i developed bulimia. i had my first psychotic break in 2011 and my second psychotic break in 2012. both were related to overconsumption of marijuana. i was in and out of psychosis between 2013 and 2017 with extreme debilitating ocd. i shared a smoke with a friend in 2015 and caught mono. while i had acute mononucleosis, i became psychotic and obsessed with curing myself by abstaining from food and water (breatharianism). i have gone 7 days without water probably 3 or 4 times. neurons die after 24 hours without water. i didn’t eat regularly for two years. just starving and binging and starving. i refuse to have an mri or neuropsych testing. ive been sexually assaulted multiple times in the past couple of years (i have germ ocd). i am still afraid to get tested but i’m doing ok. my doctor thinks i’m fine. brains are really resilient and can heal. i hope this helps. i’m holding down a high pressure job, my performance is excellent, and i am mostly functional and have made huge strides with my obsessions. i was housebound for years. i still obsess. i got incredibly depressed this week about work, i still have intrusive thoughts that shame me. but i am managing. thanks for letting me share. please let me know if i can help you get over your fear of brain damage. i had extreme fear of brain damage and i have mostly gotten over it. it’s the brain i have and it is still able to be creative, learn new things, organize, and remember to complete multiple tasks.

Brain Fog Treatment- https://www.healthyplace.com/depression/symptoms/brain-fog-treatment-is-there-a-brain-fog-fix-or-cure

if you really want to know how someone might mess up their brain and aren’t worried about being triggered, i’ll tell you my story. it’s extreme. but my doctor is confident my brain is fine regardless. the brain is extremely resilient

i used to obsess about this too but i dont anymore

T3ddy Thank you so much for sharing your story. I greatly appreciate it. You're a true inspiration.

i’m so glad it’s helpful. i’m happy to share. i’m pretty sure i am still healing. i am trying to be more proactive with meditation. i am grateful for the things my brain is capable of doing. i take care of it now — omega 3’s and greens and adaptogenic herbs and CBD and exercise. sometimes i watch too much TV when im anxious. i don’t smoke cigarettes anymore. oh yeah, i also used to be a horrible alcoholic. forgot to mention that. fortunately it didn’t last long. i once drank an entire bottle of vodka by myself. once i drank a hip flask of rum after fasting for a week. we’re all going to continue healing. your brain could be better in ten years than it was when you were 15. especially since brain research is advancing so rapidly.

Thank you for sharing your story of resilience and determination.

How does one mess up their brain ?

Remember your brain works in a funny way. It’s actually there to protect you. The OCD is the fear. And the symptoms is the brains way of protecting itself from further harm. Try square breathing for 10 min. In for 4 hold for 4 out for 4 hold for 4 repeat

Teddy u can tell your story