Makingocdmybitch
- Date posted
- 3y
i genuinely hate myself
i can’t understand why i’m like this and why i do the things i do
SaraaSaraa
- Date posted
- 3y
It's okay to feel like that. Sometimes it happens to not understand, and it's absolutely normal to feel angry at not understanding. Here's the thing: we try to understand things with the mentality that we used in past/that our parents/experiences teached us. (It's called projection, when we try to understand others by "projecting" ourself in their experiences.). And that is normal too, but it can lead to traps that block us. Sometimes, the mentality that you have can't understand yours problems, or problems of others. And it's hard I know, but in that situations the best thing you can do is listen.
SaraaSaraa
- Date posted
- 3y
For example: if a friend of yours have a chronic pain and you don't, you can't understand how some things works/ how he feels, because you never experienced it before! So you would probably have an hard time understanding him. It doesn't means that his chronic pain doesn't exist, that it is all in his mind or that he is "built wrong". What would you do in a situation like that? I am preatty sure, that you would try to help him the best you can! You would stay; and help him to feel better! In order to understand, you need to listen at him, and validate his feelings even if you can't understand them at the moment. Search for solutions, and making him follow them! And with time and effort, maybe one day together after a lot of trying, he would feel better! It's the same with yourself. Inside you there is a "little you" (metaphorically speaking) that is suffering and needs help. It's hard to understand why, or how. But you can search for solutions. You can "listen" your feelings/your fears, and search for solutions. There alre a lot of professionist and healing process out there. And maybe, with some trying, effort and time, you will learn more about yourself and heal a little more!
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