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- 6y
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- 6y
Yeah man. I’ve had this going on in varying degrees for a long time. I used to be extremely horny and attracted to women. I’m still attracted to women but it’s not the same because there are stupid thoughts of some sort that go with it. So it’s had an effect for sure. My experience is that when this is severe, it affects every area of life
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- 6y
Dont worry... that is normal. Maybe you should change of therapist. Sometimes is not the right one. And yes... you should tell them everything. So they can understand you and treat you better. As us, they are not going to judge you. With ocd, a therapist needs to know you too. And how your behaviours work, what level of anxiety you have, what happened in your past. How is your family or your friends. Maybe until the 3th or 4th month they can not give you an useful treatment. I am in my 6th month and I am getting better :)
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- 6y
I think I will do. I’ve had a rough personal history but I’ve never been ashamed of that so much as what’s happened with my condition and I was much younger at the time and so scared. Nevertheless, it’s encouraging to read that you’re getting better and I hope you continue to, thank you.
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- 6y
Did you try therapy? It is really effective to help with this shit...
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- 6y
Your not alone maybe people with sexual obsessions have low sexual drive
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- 6y
Well I’m glad I’m not totally alone. I’ve been receiving therapy recently but I think really it’s not the right type for me. Ive previously had CBT but honestly I don’t think that either I was fully capable of being honest with all my issues and the therapist wasn’t that amazing either. But I’ve been looking at ERP. However I have wondered what I need to be exposed to, to be honest. Lack of confidence, the residual thoughts? It’s almost funny because the more I feel totally incapable of a relationship old worrisome thoughts that I believed had subsided tend to appear again. Thanks for the responses though everyone.
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- 6y
I’m sorry you’ve been put under pressure like that TheresaMarie. Is your therapist one who treats OCD?
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- 24w
Im a straight man and sometimes I make the mistake of compulsively getting on here. It’s gotten better but I slip sometimes. I feel like I’m alone in this and I even read on some OCD page that Women are more likely to suffer from this theme than Men. That just makes me feel like I’m in denial of some sort. I feel alone and feel like my intrusive thoughts are different. I know that’s what everyone who has ocd thinks, but I can’t help shake the feeling like what if I’m lying to myself or what if I have some underlying secret. I don’t want to be gay. I find I argue with myself in my head over and over and sometimes by repeating “I don’t want to be gay, I want to be straight” I’ll end up saying the opposite and that would scare me even though I know that It happened because I’m constantly fighting with OCD. Just feeling a bit down today. I had a sexual dream about an ex girlfriend and it felt great and I’m not scared by it. I find and want to be with Women romantically til forever.
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- 24w
since february i have "POcd". Initial symptoms were thoughts, but then I did a testing compulsion during an intimate time, and I spiraled ever since. I struggle with addiction to smut. I'm cutting that out, but I feel as if it is too late. Ive never experienced this much mental, and emotional anguish in my life. On my time on this application I have given advice to others, and helped around, but I wonder if that even applies to me. Millions of times I wish I could turn back time and be more careful. I want to prevent many things, including what led me to spiral into OCD in the first place. I'm surely having an OCD episode. I have gotten a diagnosis, but I'm still not sure. I feel evil, cause unlike many here, I tested on my body sensations and it backfired (twice) I know I'm not supposed to figure out why that is the case, but now I have to live with it for the rest of my life even if its something I don't desire. This is disgusting for me, it is abhorrent. I could've never seen this coming. Day by day I've become more fearful of living with this, "OCD". I was a normal person before this, I knew what I was attracted to, I know my preferences, so why did this come about? This is singlehandedly the most painful thing that has happened to me and I have nobody but myself to blame. I am scared of death but I also would'nt mind sleeping for years on end. My parents and brother were understanding of my situation, but I failed them regardless. I don't want them to see me this way, nor do I want them to learn more of my predicament. I'm cooked. I know it, Fin, thats all folks. I'm only 20 and I already have other diagnosed mental illness so I recklessly brought upon myself another one. Its agonizing to live through, I wish this on nobody, not even my worst enemy. I can't even identify myself at this point. Its tearing me apart.
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I suffer since 10 - 15 yrs from specific fears. It was years that my OCD constantly wanted to be checked if I have HIV or not. I had a lot of sex and I thought this is normal. But I ruminated in my backhead about and was testing like 5 - 10 times a year. After the test I felt everytime so relieved. In Corona I was addicted to porn and even I lost control and was watching pretty hard stuff. I was chatting with a girl and we fantasized about really disturbing things. I never wanna meet her and for me was sure it's just kinda onlinestuff. I was in a relationship 3 years now. And I lost fear of HIV. But then came Morality OCD, Real Event (this chat) and after some times POCD. This combination was knocking me out, I felt like the badest person on earth. I did everything wrong and searched for relief and reassurance. It put me to the point of suicidal. I never ever hurting somebody, but my brain was making me a monster. I had to quit the relationship because I just couldn't give her what she deserved. I was in a clinic for 3 months. And we tested medication with ERP (before I took escitalopram for years). Anafranil was working first, then too many side-effects. I tried even without meds, but was so depressed. Now on sertralin for 5 weeks, but only 2 weeks on therapeutic dose 200mg. And wow, now I really feel so confused in the brain. I feel like how big my OCD became. The specific thoughts are not anymore, BUT it sticks on EVERYTHING atm. It's delusional how it feels in the brain. I really hope so deep my brain makes finally a reset and I need to wait it out. I could live with OCD for a long time but the last 1-2 yrs it took absolutely everything. I remark that POCD doesn't stick anymore like before but my brain is now constructing a very bad future because of past mistakes (that I all discussed with family, friends for relief over and over and over again). So it's like my OCD is now Real Event (The sexchat) again. Anyone was on the same point in life?
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