- Username
- nochill
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Quickest way to a substance use disorder. Relying on these things to deal with anxiety and thoughts. Trust me, I know. Just be careful because addiction is another form of obsessing. The problem is it does work, but only for so long
Oh as someone with 20 years experience going down that road I have some thoughts. Self medicated since I was teenager with cannabis, alcohol, and every other substance you can think of but cannabis was drug of choice. Honestly it number me to the anxiety. These days it can trigger anxiety rumination and dysphoria. Doesnt mean Ive quit thats a hard thing for me and nit even really a goal. But it has consequences. Ive had productive life but something is wrong with my brain I have memory issues, issues just being sober. But overal Im quite successful in an objective sense so I cant say if it helped or hindered me long term. I just know its taken a something from me. Maybe its just memories I dunno I feel like life is a blur sometimes. Maybe thats ocd I dunno. Alcohol yea its great when Im drinking. But anxiety is worse when you are hungover or get older and hangovers are worse. Im trying to cut back these things but its to do and do ocd treatment and just deal with things in life Ive drank and drugged away for years and years andd years. So yea be careful. Habe fun but be safe and aware or what you are doing and why you are doing it.
I feel like it makes me hate myself less. It makes my OCD thoughts be able to enter my mind and then pass
Recovering alcoholic here. I drank and popped benzos to try to get away from intrusive thoughts and it damn near killed me. I barely escaped with my life. Watch what you're doing.. it's really easy to become addicted and once you are you're an addict for life. The numbing effect only lasts for a time, then your consuming more and more to medicate the thoughts but to no avail.
I find that marijuana helps me not act on my compulsion. It doesn’t really reduce my anxiety but it helps me sit with it without any harmful behavior. I try to limit my use however as i don’t want to rely on anything.
I've self medicated with alcohol for a long time about 6 years now I can't stop drinking
I think I'm in a similar position with alcohol (and thought of testing MJ, but not yet anyways). I tried alcohol for sure since 2 years ago and last year (add college + trying to experiment + stress + drinker friends) made me drunk quite a lot of times, also, the thought of wanting of thinking about alcohol was there quite too much... It made me ask myself If I'm in some alcohol abuse pattern or something :/ Anyways, because of a medication I couldn't drink with it since 2 months ago and I've been feeling nice, you know? It's like feeling like myself again and with less of those thoughts and I am feeling healthier (rest all the hangovers that I avoided). It's nice tbh, both feelings, so I think now after of lefting the medication I will mash both sides: getting drunk in college once a while it's quite nice, but not drinking some time it's also quite nice, so, why not rotating with both?
I’m the same as glitchy with Cannabis. I love it, but I make sure to be mindful because anything can become addicting. Alcohol on the other hand nearly killed me and the hangovers were unbearable.
I am always worried about medication/drugs and I am so anxious about whether I might be under the influence of something or not. has experienced anything similar? I have derealization and panic attacks and I am so so tired of worrying about whether or not I am “feeling” real or if something I ate had drugs in it. I am so sick of doing compulsions and living in constant fear!!! I tell myself that it’s fine and that derealization is just my body’s natural coping mechanism and even though I always fear for the worst nothing bad ever happens but I just can’t get it through my head!!! It’s so frustrating!!
I’ve been vaping for about three years now. I’ve tried to quit multiple times but with the people around me, also do, and it makes it difficult to stop buying it and or hitting it. My OCD is based off obsessive thoughts on my health and worrying about natural bodily feelings. Twitches, random pains throughout my body, scare me and make me feel like I can’t control my thoughts. When I vape, i’ve heard about lungs collapsing and I worry about it. I want to stop, but can’t seem to. If I have a headache I worry about a brain tumor, when there are many reasons I could have one. When I mess up a sentence I worry about a stroke, and check my face to see if it’s even. I worry about cancer on a regular basis, a small pain or lymph node swollen, i convince myself it’s cancer. I go to the doctor often because of this. It’s scary, that there is a possibility it could happen. I hate this.
Does anyone else have the strong urge to do some sort of drugs sometimes when there ocd gets really bad or over nothing in general, like I’ll just be sitting doing nothing and my brain goes “you need to do cocaine right now or else” and I get a urge and it’s so like odd to me??? I’ve never done drugs in my life and never plan to because my father was a addict and I’ve seen what they’ve done to people so it scares me when I get these thoughts and then I get the urge to reach out to someone who can give me drugs and I play this whole scenario in my mind where I contact someone and I meet up with them and pay them for the drugs and then I take them and die and it’s like??? Idk I’ve had weird intrusive thoughts involving drugs before but this is like different if that makes sense, I also can’t stop focusing on how my body feels when this happens like it’ll feel like I was a previous addict and that I’m going through withdrawal and need something or else and it’s just so weird to me. Anyone else go through this?
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