HOCD and one piece

So in the manga ONE PIECE, there’s this character named Yamato. The reason why my HOCD has triggered me so much, is because in the story, Yamato refers to themselves as a man because of their idolization of Oden (Kozuki Oden was a man right? So I became a man too!) and goes by “Kaido’s Son” and everyone calls them by masculine nicknames, but when checking other sources that are canon to the story, the author meant for them to be female (and they tried to clarify it multiple times) but was scrapped, the official canon wiki for them describes them as female, and other promotional material by creators declare them as female. My HOCD tells me that I’ve been in denial because I thought a trans-man was attractive, but evidence points to both sides of the story… 😞😞😞 I don’t ever want to be homosexual or bisexual at all…

M4ks

Date posted: 2y

I wouldn't give it much thought, because it's a fictional character. Like, literally I know some people who think that Scar from The Lion King is hot or something, but it doesn't mean anything about them. As a trans man myself, I honestly have no idea how Yamato is a trans-man, but if so, it's ok. I'm a gay trans man, and I would not be attracted to Yamato, it's just a preference. If you're a straight man, Yamato maybe could possibly catch your eye because of how feminine they are. I'm into men and transmasc nonbinary people, and sometimes, butch lesbians catch my interest, but as soon as I know they're not men, I lose the interest. The fact that they catch my eye doesnt mean that I'm not gay or that I'm bisexual or something.

Givenup

Date posted: 2y

@M4ks When Yamato was confirmed to be a woman after the controversy and stuff based on the canon wiki, I was attracted to her because of the material confirming her to be such, but then other stuff started coming out about her joining the guys bath, etc. and everyone on other social medias (Reddit mostly) talking about how people are being transphobic because of their “denial of being gay”… I respect people no matter which gender they choose to identify as. But with how confusing they make Yamato’s gender identity, from the author intending for her to clearly specify that she’s a woman but cutting the scene for unknown purposes, to her still proclaiming to be Oden after Wano, it triggers me a lot…)

M4ks

Date posted: 2y

@Givenup Honestly, I wouldn't call it "denial of being gay" or anything like that, cause it's a fictional character that looks like a woman but identifies like a man. It's just that, pure ficion. Idk why they made this character that way they did, but whatever, it's just ficition, you know? If they were confirmed a woman, then that's great. You'vs got nothing to worry about. As for proclaiming to be Oden after Wano, maybe look at it as some girls who call each other "bro" or "dude" these days? It's just a nickname. OCD really sucks, I know. It's hard to argue with it, I don't wanna reassure you too much, I really recommend you to accept the uncertainty. It really helped me during my last episode. Just tell yourself that you dont give a damn anymore, until you really believe that.

Locna

Date posted: 2y

I understand. When we are uncertain then OCD trys to find "certainty". Being uncertain is normal and rarely do we find answers, rather we jump to another thought. OCD doesn't allow this so we must force it by using the silent sitting or other therapy methods. It's hard, I'm sorry this is happening.

Dreamydream

Date posted: 15w

TOCD

2 nights ago I saw something on my phone and it has now spiraled into me scared of being trans or being gay because i don’t want to be… now i have a huge fear of what if i am gay and am attracted to woman or what if im not comfortable in my body and want to turn into a man. It’s freaking me out - my ocd always makes me question my character! Has anyone experienced this 😩

sofiaraaah7

Date posted: 11w

TOCD and very light SO-OCD

I wouldn’t really say I have SO-OCD, but it manifests in some areas of my TOCD. Like if I see a woman for example my thoughts will go “what if I like her but as a man?” like my thoughts say I’m a straight man instead of a straight woman. And it’s really bothering me. If I see an attractive woman my brain will re-wire and imagine myself as a man looking at an attraction woman and it gets super uncomfortable that I have to like shake my head and say “no no no no no” multiple times to get the thought out. I know that counts as a compulsion but it’s hard to not do it because it’s so triggering. Now I don’t mind if I like women, however I’m really scared that I’m actually a straight man who likes women (or at least a bisexual man, considering I like men) and I hate it because I don’t want to be a man. Like I’ll think of my desired relationship as a woman dating a man but my OCD will switch it up to me being the man dating the woman, which is the opposite of what I want. I don’t want to be a man at all and I don’t want to date a woman, both of those are the opposite of my desires, but I’m still so scared. I’ll accept myself if I actually like women and am a bisexual woman, however I heard that being bisexual can mean being trans which scares me (for the record it was said in reddit by a sub which is mainly focused on a pseudoscientific phenomenon, that is still believed by the members to be true, so it’s definitely not a trustworthy statement, but my OCD will use anything to work against me) Does anyone here relate a little? 🥲

Mimo116

Date posted: 9w

So-ocd,please answer

Can hocd create mental feelings or things that resemble inclinations Without a physical response?, but such as arousal and mental attraction, for example, I have so ocd and I'm afraid that I might like women.So, in the last period, when I look at photos of girls, especially beautiful ones, I feel something strange or attracted,sometimes their bodies.And I'm confused as to what that might mean, it's like sexual orientation, is this from me or OCD produced by it?'The feeling is like the feeling of discovering new inclinations and this breaks me, I just want to reconcile with myself in any sexual orientation or identity, but I just can't feel comfortable and reconcile with the fact that I may like women or it may happen in the future.And I have these feelings that telling me messing around the girls would be fun, and I feel something like desire, but I never come to terms with this.. I'm going to be 15 years old, I know, I'm not supposed to think like that, I don't have the right to determine who I am now because im young, and I shouldn't continue to dream of marrying a man..My mind keeps reminding me of the fact that I'm a teenager and the likelihood that everything will change is high, but right now, I'm not asking for anything but rest.I want to love myself and reconcile with her.

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