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- 2y
False memories when drinking
Hi guys. I am really struggling and not in a good place. I need help. I don’t know what else to do. Please help. I have these two false memories I can’t get out of my mind. They are both from nights I was drinking. One of them popped up two days after the night I drank and the other one popped up the next morning. I had one single thought that I cheated and boom. That thought has stuck with me ever since. Both nights I was alone with a boy in a room, not in a weird way. On one of the nights, my friends fell asleep and a guy was in the room. It was one of my friends boyfriends. They fell asleep and he was just watching tv. I even remember the show he was watching and I recall exchanging a few words then he went upstairs. There were parts in between all of these I can’t exactly remember and those are the gaps that have caused me to feel insane. I keep saying “what if “ and I can’t get it out of my head. It has me questioning every interaction I have with my friend and him. If he acts weird, I think “oh he just confirmed it. I deff did something” or even if she is slow texting me back I think “she knows” even though I know deep down I did not do anything. It’s like I’m ignoring the fact that I know nothing happened but still feeling guilty and trying to look for clues from them to verify if I did do something bad. I feel insane because it’s like I know I didn’t do anything but at the same time, how do I truly know? It’s taken over my life and I am constantly trying to find reassurance to ease my mind. I find me texting them to see if they are gonna act “weird”. It’s so strange and i feel like I’m going crazy. I don’t know what to do. The other situation is similar. I was alone with someone while drunk because my friend passed out but I remember almost everything but stuck on the “what if” please help me. I know deep down I’m innocent but I keep convincing myself I cheated and did something bad.