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- O
- Date posted
- 6y ago
- Username
- OO
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I have ocd with a schizophrenia theme and it literally kills me, but I’m determined to beat this and get my life back. I always look back on who I used to be before all of this started and I think I can still be that person. I always used to have ocd before I even knew what ocd was. I used to have bouts of pocd and harm ocd, but they weren’t as bad as this one. I’ve been diagnosed three times with ocd and still can’t get past this obsession. It all started when I got a horrible panic attack from weed when I was 18. I idiotically decided to research and convinced myself I’ve had like 90 different illnesses. The worst one that stuck out the most of what I read was schizo. It literally petrified me. I’ve had times with this obsession where I felt normal again. I traveled a lot, I hung out with friends, and things were getting better for a couple of years. Now 2018 hits I’m 25 and the obsession came back 400 times stronger. Everyone tells me I’m fine, but my mind always comes up with the scariest thoughts to try and convince me that I’m crazy. It’s been so depressing
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- OO
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I should also mention that I have no family history of it, but I am left handed and I read that lefties are more likely to have it. I’m so afraid that I started to try and write with my right hand. How stupid is that. ?
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- shiriiiiii6shiriiiiii6
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I’m so sorry to hear the hard time u have been having w/ your ocd sweetie. That’s truly intense. I have ocd too, it also holds me back. I’ll obsess about a bad thought I have and have to perform certain “repetitive rituals” in my head to somehow “undo” that bad thought. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. It’s truly the strangest feeling to be jailed in your own mind. Especially when u know u can have control but your brain convinces u that u don’t. It’s something so difficult to explain to people who don’t go through it. But I do assure u, u WILL beat this and u R OKAY. Life is NOT out to get u. Life is beautiful. Try to learn meditation, it really helped me. I also keep calming energy crystals around myself at home, work, car and purse. It sounds silly but energy is all around u. It can make u feel imbalanced and balancing it out/working on it daily like a vitamin is so important.
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- I can’t think of a usernameI can’t thin...
- Date posted
- 6y ago
It will get better!
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- shiriiiiii6shiriiiiii6
- Date posted
- 6y ago
What r u constantly thinking of?
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- AnxiousashleyAnxiousashley
- Date posted
- 6y ago
@shiriiiiii6 my husband just got me an energy crystal ring ?❤️
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- AnxiousashleyAnxiousashley
- Date posted
- 6y ago
OCD can make you do stupid things ? it has made me do many stupid things
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- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I don’t want this to sound like reassurance, I’m just not sure. I’m pretty new to this and not officially diagnosed yet. But please can I ask- I am constantly thinking about this everyday, from the minute I wake up until I go to sleep. It used to ease off but not so much anymore. It’s not so much the original rOCD thoughts anymore (although they’re still there, I’m struggling to find them, I’m just feeling more lost and sad) but I’m constantly questioning is this OCD, or ‘I don’t have that symptom so it can’t be’ or ‘these therapists just want your money, there is no such this as rOCD’. I’m feeling sort of sad really- and my brain is telling me it’s my relationship but there’s nothing wrong with my relationship. Is it normal to be thinking like this, all day every day- is that obsessing? (I know this sounds like a silly question but my brain is playing all sorts of games with me at the moment!)
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- Lemon1995
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y ago
OCD
When you just don’t know anymore. Is it OCD, is it me. Is it ocd because I’m questioning it? Can someone help me. I’m having a tough time with suicidal OCD and keep thinking that this is with me forever and it’s not going to get better. My ROCD has also started to kick in 😢 I feel like I can’t enjoy myself because these thoughts and feeling are just sitting over me
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- MyLifeIsOCD
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Thinking about "it" 24/7
Im thinking about it (the obsession) 24/7. If my mind wanders off for like 4 seconds, it goes right back to the thought and Id be like: yes, at least I didnt think about it for 4 seconds, 4 seconds release. Im constantly checking if I still think about it (even though I try not to it goes automatically) and that there is the thought/obsession again, I think about it. Its there 24/7, during everything I do, during every conversation, etc. I cannot live on autopilot, wander off or think about something else for more than 5 seconds. This goes on for months. Its driving me totally crazy! Is this normal for OCD? Does everyone with OCD have this. Is thinking and checking if still thinking about it 24/7 common in OCD?
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