Anyone suffered with questioning if they got a Groinal on purpose? I had an intrusive thought to “ just get a feeling” while holding my baby and got a weird Groinal.and now I think I acted!
Everyone with sexual obsessions (and even some with harm obsessions) have dealt with this - if it helps at all, the part of your brain responsible for arousal doesn't really separate excitement & fear (as in, the brain treats them the same.) Groinals happen because we don't want them to - we're scared of them, thus making them a perfect target for OCD. Try and not ruminate on it, or reassurance seek, or whatever other mind tricks your OCD wants you to play. A thought or a feeling aren't actions - we don't control our thoughts or feelings, only our actions. Remind yourself that.
@moonlights I’m trying so hard to realize what it’s my ocd. But guilt thinking you did something weird towards your baby is brutal
@Lostmama42 I'm sure it is, I can't imagine how you must be feeling right now - but know that you have nothing to be guilty for, period. There is no amount of ruminating or compulsions you can do to change that. Remember that there are TONS of wonderful moms that've gone through the same as you, and they managed to ride the wave of anxiety that OCD brings - you can do it, too. 🤍🤍
@moonlights Thank you for the encouragement
Sorry i knoe this is old but I have the same thing. I wonder If a groinal was on purpose all the time.
@Anonymousg Oh trust me it’s been months but I’m no better. It’s hard
@Lostmama42 Hope it helps you aren’t alone. I alowaus worry about my intentions with ocd. It’s awful. I completley understand
@Lostmama42 Also thanks so much for sharing this. I seriously thought I was the only one who thought I did my groinals on purpose. It makes me feel better knowing my ocd isn’t special :)
Every time I go to bed late and I’m falling asleep, I suddenly get an intrusive thought of a child’s face and my groinal area always responds to it. It’s such an uncomfortable experience. I am way too tired to try and freak out so I end up falling asleep. The next morning I’m always trying to figure out whether I had the groinal response first or after the thought. I start giving OCD power but it feels like If I let it go, then I’m in denial or whatever. I don’t want to ever do anything sexual with a child. I don’t even feel comfortable talking platonically with people who are 17, much less a child. My therapist says that I have a deep rooted fear that I’m this horrible person and that OCD loves to feed off of it. When you get a groinal response, it makes the thought that much more real. I never want these things to happen. I want to only be into adults. It’s so discomforting and stressful. Especially since I’m hyper checking how anxious I am, and if I find I didn’t really have much anxiety, then I’m like “well if I didn’t have anxiety, what does this mean?” And more questions occur til I end up in a rabbit hole
I’ve been feeling the urge to avoid intimacy or purposefully engage (for reassurance that I won’t give into a compulsion) because of intrusive thoughts and fear that I’ll “check/test” my reactions. My OCD is making me so scared that I’ll purposefully think of a child and try to see if I like it. It’s so complicated but I guess I’m mentally checking if I would mentally check during intimacy. I’ve even envisioned myself checking and it’s making me so nauseous. I know it’s a compulsion like any other but the sound of “touching yourself to the thought of a child” sounds atrocious and vile. I’m terrified I’ll automatically start checking next time I am being intimate. I truly feel so worried. If anyone has gone through something similar, I’d appreciate hearing your experience. Or if anyone has any advice?
I’m on my period and o think my ocd feels a little worse today… I feel anxious and like something bad is about to happen, like I can’t move or talk cause I’ll freak out or snap and do something. Also I had a gronial response about an SA topic and I feel horrible, I’ve noticed that I do have these gronials as if I’m actually into that but idk if it can happen that you have the gronial and think “oh I’m horny, not about this but I am” is that possible? Idk how to say it… also I think I just want reassurance but I’m also scared…
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