Anyone suffered with questioning if they got a Groinal on purpose? I had an intrusive thought to “ just get a feeling” while holding my baby and got a weird Groinal.and now I think I acted!
Everyone with sexual obsessions (and even some with harm obsessions) have dealt with this - if it helps at all, the part of your brain responsible for arousal doesn't really separate excitement & fear (as in, the brain treats them the same.) Groinals happen because we don't want them to - we're scared of them, thus making them a perfect target for OCD. Try and not ruminate on it, or reassurance seek, or whatever other mind tricks your OCD wants you to play. A thought or a feeling aren't actions - we don't control our thoughts or feelings, only our actions. Remind yourself that.
@moonlights I’m trying so hard to realize what it’s my ocd. But guilt thinking you did something weird towards your baby is brutal
@Lostmama42 I'm sure it is, I can't imagine how you must be feeling right now - but know that you have nothing to be guilty for, period. There is no amount of ruminating or compulsions you can do to change that. Remember that there are TONS of wonderful moms that've gone through the same as you, and they managed to ride the wave of anxiety that OCD brings - you can do it, too. 🤍🤍
@moonlights Thank you for the encouragement
Sorry i knoe this is old but I have the same thing. I wonder If a groinal was on purpose all the time.
@Anonymousg Oh trust me it’s been months but I’m no better. It’s hard
@Lostmama42 Hope it helps you aren’t alone. I alowaus worry about my intentions with ocd. It’s awful. I completley understand
@Lostmama42 Also thanks so much for sharing this. I seriously thought I was the only one who thought I did my groinals on purpose. It makes me feel better knowing my ocd isn’t special :)