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I just had a very very gruesome intrusive thought that I don’t even want to repeat. And I feel like I’m in a dream state of mind and that i don’t know what’s going on with me. I’m sooo sooo scared that I’m just gonna go off and do what my thought says. Like i feel so weird. I’m not hallucinating or seeing things or anything but i just don’t feel like me. My head feels heavy i feel weird and now I’m scared that what if it’s not ocd and i end up doing something seriously wrong. What if i secretly like my thoughts? What if I’m not me? What if i do something bad? Please help. Any advice would be great. Am i truly going crazy? I don’t know what’s going on

IwillconcureOCD

Date posted: 2y

I hear you! First of all your not crazy. Everyone has intrusive thoughts and there’s nothing wrong with having intrusive thoughts, just how your dealing with them. Sit with the thought, even though the thought is uncomfortable and feels heavy sit with it. Do you need those what ifs? Maybe say something like ‘I hear you thought, but I don’t care, thank you brain for keeping me safe’.

Anon17

Date posted: 2y

@Embraceuncertainty2022 Thanks so much this makes me feel a lot better. But i guess it’s not just the thought that scares me it’s the way i feel as well. Like i do have anxiety and i don’t think i have had a full blown anxiety attack but can it cause you to feel like not you if you know what i mean. Like somebody else’s mind is in your body. Is this ocd as well?

Schroder

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

That's ocd for ya, the doubting disorder, just remember it challenges everything you know in your mind to not be real, the intense urges and intrusive thoughts are all part of ocd, this disorder loves to make us question everything and make us feel like were weaker then we are. I'd definitely get set up with a therapist that can help you with erp and get yourself back to where you feel in control, but trust me when I say you're not alone at all ☺️

Anon17

Date posted: 2y

@Schroder It’s makes me feel a lot better that I’m not alone but as the same time it still does like i keep telling myself there is no way Anyone else feels this way. I just get so scared. Especially with the new Dahmer series on Netflix. I keep seeing it all over the place and i cannot get it out of my Mind. And my worst fear is just ending up like that

IwillconcureOCD

Date posted: 2y

I have felt the same when I have had intrusive thoughts. After all, your body parts talk to one another. If your brain is scared, naturally your whole body will feel scared. But yeah sit with the intrusive thought but don’t engage with it. By doing what if’s and seeking reassurance your feeding the thought which will make it live longer.

Anon17

Date posted: 2y

@Embraceuncertainty2022 Thank you. I guess my biggest problem right now is dealing with the sensations or the way I am feeling. And it’s really hard for me to sit with my thoughts because my thoughts lately have been really bad especially with the new Dahmer show being released it feels like my brain just cannot escape the thought of the show or what he did and i just don’t want to end up like that. That’s why it’s so hard for me to sit with my thoughts because i feel like if i sit with them then that means i want them. And that’s my biggest problem right now :(

You got this:)

Date posted: 2y

@Anon17 Exactly how I feel to the T! The dahmer part and all. I just have to keep reminding myself they are just thoughts if you need anyone to talk to please message me I’m happy to talk to someone who gets it!

Anon17

Date posted: 2y

@kfarley23 Will do thank you thanks so much!

samlovesjesus

Date posted: 25w

how do i know if i have OCD?

so this all started not too long ago, for literally no reason at all. but one day i got a random intrusive thought about harming others and it freaked me out bad. since then i’ve been non stop focusing on it and im genuinely scared that i am, or gonna end up like those sick people that have documentaries about them. i’ve never had these types of thoughts before and after me and my mom looked a lot of stuff up we think i have OCD cuz a lot of the stuff it was saying was accurate to me. to anyone in here, does this sound like OCD to you? i’ve always been a nice loving person and these thoughts freak me out so bad and make me feel like i’m a bad gross person. it got to the point i don’t even like looking at myself anymore. i just wanna go back to normal man. another thing to add, when i would explain this to my mom even though i was telling the full truth on how crappy this made me feel it felt like i was lying almost? but i know i wasn’t deep down. i’m just scared that what if i act on something or get in my head too much you know?

alyssa_h

Date posted: 22w

i can’t do this much longer

i’m having a full on panic attack, i never used to be like this, what tf is happening to me, why am i like this, i’m so convinced i’m a horrible person and i deserve to be shut out forever because of my thoughts, i’m tired of struggling with harm ocd, i’m scared that because i have mental health issues i’m gonna end up ki!!ing someone someday or end up on the news, when i was at work earlier i kept thinking “how easy would it be to ki!! someone and get away with it” someone help, i don’t feel normal, am i crazy?… 😭😭i know that with ocd you’re not supposed to have reassurance and you have to be “okay” with the situation but.. how am i supposed to be okay with feeling like i could hurt someone…

samlovesjesus

Date posted: 21w

i’m really worried

so i start therapy tomorrow. but bro it’s just getting worse and im so scared. like the thoughts are getting more frequent and i genuinely feel evil and i hate it. i keep thinking what if i do it and im scared im eventually gonna. i’m scared i give off a creepy vibe or im lying to myself or others. please tell me is this ocd? do i need to be actually worried? i’m really freaking out

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