Help with new thought? Has anyone experienced?

Okay i struggle with harm ocd and my newest intrusive thought is me picturing myself in jail. It’s very frightening. I would never want to do anything wrong but i just can’t stop picturing it. Also my family was talking about dreams we have had the other night. And one of my siblings said she had a nightmare about me killing my dogs. And I’m freaking out. Like why would she dream that about me. And i keep picturing myself in jail behind bars, in the court room, etc. I don’t want anything to happen. I don’t want to be a bad person.

Pandora7

Date posted: 2y

I have this fear too! I remember reading this book about a girl who got out of prison and I kept having a horrible feeling I was going to end up there too. It was so horrible but it's just anxiety don't worry!! Whenever u have the thoughts try say to yourself "yup that will be me" it will teach your brain to not be afraid of it anymore in the long run! Hope this helps

Anon17

Date posted: 2y

@Pandora7 Thanks for the suggestion! But that for me is so scary because i have intrusive thoughts about killing/murder and then today i started picturing the jail scene. The other day while watching tv there was a commercial about a female serial killer and now between the commercial and the Dahmer series that is all i can think about. It’s so scary. I felt good all day at work and now it just hit me all at once. Now I’m at home and I’m freaking out

You got this:)

Date posted: 2y

@Anon17 I have the same bad thoughts distract yourself that’s why you felt good at work the dahmer series set me off too I’ve never had issue like this before something my therapist told me is it’s always the nicest most caring people who get the intrusive bad thoughts stuck in there heads because they are so scared of becoming that person if your scared of the thoughts or have guilt or even just don’t want to be having them then that means you don’t want what your thoughts are saying thoughts are just thoughts you really think dahmer felt bad or guilt before he did what he did? Do you think he thought about it and tried to seek help? No! Another thing my therapist told me that really helped is that she is proud of me for talking about it. And I say the same thing to you. IM PROUD OF YOU! THOUGHTS ARE JUST THOUGHTS! You are loved❤️ if you ever need to talk just let me know:)

Anon17

Date posted: 2y

@kfarley23 Thank you so much! ❤️ this means a lot and makes me feel a lot better! It seems like you i understand what I’m going through the most about what I’ve been posting on this app. I’m new to this app and am so glad to find out that I’m not alone with the way I’m feeling. How can i send you a private message?! ❤️

You got this:)

Date posted: 2y

@Anon17 I have no idea how to message privately but yes you aren’t alone this is my second week having this type of ocd and meds definitely help so does meditation and therapy!

Anon17

Date posted: 2y

Thank you so much! I will say that I used to meditate daily and then one night i did my meditation and it made me feel worse because it’s like it brought the thoughts to me and ever since then i have never meditated again because I’m scared of feeling that way. Maybe i can give it another try

You got this:)

Date posted: 2y

@Anon17 Feeling awful is ok it’s important to sit in your thoughts so when they pop up they don’t bother you as much

Astjtoju13!

Date posted: 23w

Harm ocd

Someone please help me I’m having intrusive thoughts of hurting my pets and I’m really scared of myself and I want these thoughts to go away. Can someone please help me I’m scared and I don’t know if I’m a monster

Thejollygian...

Date posted: 23w

My Harm OCD

Basically long story short, ive been dealing with anxiety for a very long time all my life I'm 23 now but about 5 months ago my anxiety started to get really and I overthink a ton and get worried to easily. So my chest hurt for a while from stress at work made me worry why it was hurting, then me worrying and thinking worse case scenarios was making it worse. So i and to go to the doctor and got diagnosed properly with anxiety and I have a med now that I take when I really need it called hydroxyzine but I also have another med that is Zoloft that I have been taking for a about a month now, to help with my intrusive thoughts I have sometimes i only get them when im stressed or when I'm by myself or when i just overthink in general, my loneliness depression is one of the reasons for my anxiety because I wish I had someone as in partner wise to love me and for me to love them. But anyways I've had intrusive thoughts about possibly hurting myself and family, or even my dog. Ive never acted on any of my thoughts in the past and I don't want to but I have had anxiety attacks when everything feels to real and really scares me. I constantly have the thought of am I crazy or am I becoming crazy and stuff and I've done a lot of looking stuff in the past about symptoms but most of them are identical to what anxiety is so it's hard to tell the difference. It's been probably 2 weeks since we last talked. I've been mostly doing good. But I just was wondering if had a little Harm OCD intrusive thought happen yesterday that targeted my Aunt at work she was complaining all day and when it got closer to the end of the shifts for us. I was already annoyed with a situation that happened earlier in the work day. But she came into my department and then went back over to hers and I said it out loud to myself and said you better get back over there or I'll, I tried to say something else because the word I was going to say was kill you. Obviously I don't but that's what my intrusive thought wanted me to say. And made me think thats why i got to hurt her to stop her complaing So the rest of the night I was saying she is safe I am safe I'm control, like this is just anxiety lying to you, it's just because I'm tired and got annoyed earlier. I can't tell if it was working or not because I was so tired and just wanted to go home. But after work her and I spent time together at our house she was on the one couch and I was on the other with a bunch of our dogs in the living room. I tried to keep my mind off of what happened, and I was fighting some stomach achyness already. But I obviously don't want to hurt her and we had conversations just fine. But I went to my other aunt house at night after work to go to bed because she has to watch my aunts dogs because my other aunt and family is on vacation. But anyways I'm trying to get over that word Kill, that word is what is scarring me and sticking. Like my anxiety is lying saying kill, or basically do harm. I don't want to do anything bad but I'm trying to shake that feeling and stickiness of that word. I'm just so scared and worried.

AJ Rose

Date posted: 22w

I’m having really bad thoughts of harm ocd

Im sleeping over my boys house and im having bad thoughts to hurt him and it’s like I can see myself acting on it. I never want to hurt anyone… I hope someone can comment or give me advice as I lie in bed watching crime documentary. It messes with my OCD creates false fantasies

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