- Date posted
- 2y
HELP-New to OCD
I am new with OCD. No medications and just started regular therapy before getting diagnosed. I have horrible ruminating thoughts on past events that I have done to my now husband (we got married in August, have been together for 8 years). I question my love for him. I question literally everything even though I know I love him and I know I made mistakes in the past. I never physically cheated, but some nights the recurring thoughts of what I did get so bad that I think that I did cheat. I replay the things I've done over and over and I feel guilty for even thinking someone else is attractive. I get panic attacks. I get terrible intrusive thoughts. Sometimes I feel like the only thing to do is to repeat all of my mistakes to him and I know I’m hurting him in the process. Why can’t I forgive myself? I am absolutely miserable and I have no idea what to do :(